Obedience [Tae x Reader]✔️

Friendships {39}

Please, for the love of God, tell me he didn't tell just said that. Please tell me that what I heard was not what he said, otherwise it would be bad. Really bed. How could I not see his feelings towards me? How could I be so blind about it?

If what I've seen, people realize how I feel about Taehuyng just by looking at me. But I didn't even understand that Logan might feel something towards me all these months of friendship?  It's really bad. And I don't even know what to do and say because there is nothing I feel romantically towards him. I only saw him as a friend and I care about him... But only as that. Nothing more nothing less. And It won't change because what I feel for Tae is so powerful.

"L-Logan...I-I-" Now he had my full attention and my head almost fell off my hand. What was I supposed to say to begin with? I'm completely inexperienced when it comes to relationships.

"You don't have to say anything. I know it's all so sudden and unexpected and trust me I don't know what to say and do either. But I know that you can't look at me the same way you look, Mr. Kim. And I don't know if it will be possible for you to be with him but I just want you to be happy. Even if it's with our professor because I know love has no limits."

Logan's words touched me. And this is another reason why I care about him so much and why I have him as my friend. Those actions and words prove it to me all the time.

"I'm so sorry I didn't realize it earlier Logan. I-I was so focused on everything else and I didn't even look for you. It's just that there were many problems the last few months and I wasn't myself. I'm sorry I can't repay your feelings." Logan took my hands to his and looked me in the eyes.

"It's ok Y/n-ah, I can never force you to like me back. I just hope our friendship won't change otherwise I don't know what I'll do without completely having you out of my life." He let out a shy laugh. "No, I don't want our friendship to be destroyed like that as well. But are you sure you want me us your friend?"

"Of course, I want you as my friend. I just need to go home and think about some things by myself. But I already feel a lot better now I told you about how I feel." He kept holding my hands but now his stare was at the floor.

"Of course, I'm always here when you are ready, and again I'm sorry. But you are an amazing person Logan. You deserve someone who can give you us much love you give them. And that person is not me." I didn't know what else to tell him but I know he deserves much better.

"Thank you for your kind words Y/n, but I know I don't have a place in your heart. Someone is already there and I don't think he'll leave anytime soon. I know how much you care and adore him only by staring at him. I hope everything works out for you and I'll always be by your side. You have nothing to be afraid of. Just be careful." I never thought Logan could be that understanding towards me and my love for Taehuyng. I also didn't realize how easy is for someone to distinguish my feeling. I need to be even more careful. I can't risk for anyone else to find out. A lot of people already know and Lia can be one of them.

LATER THAT DAY

The practice was going great. Now we have one last hour before going home and It's my first time doing a practice with Mr. Kim. Logan and I are very good if you ask me. He seems a little more distant and in his own world but I don't blame him. I don't know how I would be If I knew Tae didn't feel anything about me. Maybe I would be devasted, I can't imagine my life without him.

"Alright, class. Now we'll do the scene where it's the first encounter of Mellisa and Jacob. Whoever is not on that scene go to your seats and practice your roles quietly. I don't want to hear any voices who don't belong to that part we'll do now." Mr. Kim said and everyone nodded and quietly did their jobs.  Now  I was with Taehuyng ready to start our scene.

"Hey Baby.." Tae whispered to me as he was beside me "explaining to me things about the scene. "Hey, Tae," I whispered back. We didn't really have time to talk today and I missed him. The only interaction we had was earlier today where we exchange eye contact. "I missed you today." He whispered to my ear while he caressed my waist a little and without letting anyone else see. "Let's start our practice baby."  

And that's how the last our passed by. Tae and I did our first scene while the others were doing theirs. The whole time I could feel Lia's gaze on me but for the first time, I didn't care. I felt so great being with Tae so close and no one telling us anything or thinking it was weird. I enjoyed this lesson so much and I can't wait for more. The only bad thing about it was Logan's presence here. I just wish he never felt anything about me. I'm not even great. 

"Dringgg" 

When the bell rang everyone left the classroom." Can you please stay a little more Miss Lee so we can practice a little more?" He asked me when I was about to leave the class. "O-of course Mr. Kim. 

I was standing still and Mr. Kim was looking at me having his arms crossed while we were waiting for everyone else to leave the class. I could slowly feel the tension rising. Ever since our first time together, Tae never did anything to me except that one time in Jin's room. I don't know why though. The only thing we did was kiss a little and that's it. Every time our make-out session was about to be something more stopped and we cuddled. 

So now...being all alone in the class seems so appealing 

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