Obedience [Tae x Reader]✔️

Sucrifices {50}

I never thought days could be so miserable. When you are laying in bed looking at the ceiling with nothing in your mind. Just pure emptiness. Time looks like it's passing by without actually passing.

I've lost count of the days. I sometimes can't even understand if it's day or night. I don't know how many days have passed but I just know it's long. Very long... without Taehyung.

Without my Rock

I never thought I could explore the feeling of emptiness so well. Feeling empty can sometimes manifest as a sense of loneliness, confusion about your life and goals, or lack of motivation to pursue anything in life. Everyone might feel this void in their heart from time to time. But for me it's different. That void in my heart is permanent. It doesn't go away, no matter how much I try.

Sometimes a feeling of emptiness is fleeting and lasts only a few days or weeks. Often it resolves by itself and you feel as good as new. But sometimes this gnawing feeling persists. A host of reasons might lead to a feeling of emptiness. Especially when you have lost such an important person in your life. Because I might not know Tae that much, but the feelings I have for him are like I've known him for eternities.

Emptiness is often a symptom of unresolved pain. Some relationships can begin with passion and excitement but fizzle out due to circumstance or indifference, yet the couple stays together out of commitment. But that's not the case for us. Our passion and love for each other still exist. But the circumstances don't let us evolve it more. We are trapped in a cell called "society".

And no matter how much I try I can't be with him.

I want to feel his touch, his sweet words, kiss hugs, his cuddles, his kisses. I want to tell him how much I miss him and how much I want his reassurance that everything will be alright and it's just a phase. It'll pass. But I can't do any of it. I can just dream about him. That's the only form of the picture I can have with him. Because I don't have any on my phone. And I don't have the opportunity to call him.

I'm stuck in my bedroom missing him more every passing day, minute and second. I miss his boxy smile, his big brown eyes, his soft touches, and his laugh. I would give everything to hear his giggles again. God only knows how badly I want to forget about all this and just run into his warm embrace. The only place in the world which makes me feel so wanted, beautiful, and adoration at the same time.

As for the baby. Well..., I don't know If I'm pregnant or not. I didn't have the opportunity to go to the pharmacy and buy a test and I don't want to talk to Jin and maybe risk letting him find out about it. I already have enough on my plate.

"Hey, candy..." My brother's voice is the only voice I hear these days."I bought you some kimbab, I know you love it" The only thing I  love is Tae...

Jin is coming closer to my bed and sits down beside me while letting the tray on the stand. "Come on Y/n-ahh, you haven't eaten almost anything this couple of days. Don't do this to yourself, please."

"No! Pl-please. I don't want the food Jin. I don't want anything. I just want him, don't you get it?" My voice breaks and the sobs I was trying so hard to keep, left my mouth.

"He is your teacher Y/n! Can't you see how wrong this is? And he is so older than you! All of this is wrong. You are the one who can't see it." He touches his temple out of frustration but this pisses me off more.

"How can you say that Oppa! Out of all people, how can you say that this is wrong? Ever since I can remember you have been the only one to tell me about love and how it is the most amazing feeling in the world. You were the one to tell me that love deserves pain, happiness, and most importantly sacrifices. If you love this person, but truly love then don't have second thoughts. They deserve every tear, every laugh, and every hint of energy. Y-you said that If you truly love one another, you'll help and be each other's support. It won't always be easy. It will never be easy. But together you'll feel stronger and know how to face it. If you found your other half you'll do everything in your power to be with that person and nothing and no one will stop you from achieving that."

"You were the one who said it Jin! And right now are the person who gets in our way!"

"You are right..."

"Please just let- wait what?" Did I hear right?

"I was the one to tell you all this when we were younger. But I never actually thought how I would feel when you would have found that person and especially so soon. Instead of supporting both of you, I kept pushing you away. Away from the person who has helped you so much. More than I ever could."

"What are you talking about Oppa?" "Jimin came the other day and told me everything. He told me how much Tae has helped you feel better about yourself and how to handle the pain attacks. How your eyes are like small bright stars every time you hear his name... I'm so sorry little candy for everything. The fact that Taehyung is my best friend and your professor doesn't bother me. It was all a lie. Of course, it doesn't seem that right to have a relationship with him but who am I to say that? I was just scared. I was scared of losing you. Of losing my little candy all over again. We both had enough traumas in our lives and I didn't want history to repeat itself...But what Jimin said is true. And I never wanted to be the person who will sabotage your love."

"Oppa I-" I couldn't find the right words to say. Was that true or am I dreaming? Because this is too good to be true.

"Go, candy. He is about to start his class today. But I overheard the boys telling me that this might be his last one. And you are the only person who can stop him.

Minutes Later...

It was the first time I got ready so fast. The first time I run for the university like my life depends on it. Because it does.

When I entered the university the bell had just rung for the students to go to their classes. I started running once again and I found a seat in the back of the class.

It didn't pass long for everyone to start talking loud like they used to every day before the professor would come in. As for Lia, she must be suspended for way more than I thought.

My heart was beating so fast the moment I saw him entering the room. The students didn't seem to notice for the first time. Taehyung didn't seem well. He was looking exhausted like he hasn't slept for days and his hair wasn't styled as it used to be every day. Of course, for me, he still seems the most handsome man on this planet.

The class kept shouting and I could see the irritation on his face growing second by second.

"Did you all forget what I told you in our first lesson?!"

"There is only one thing I want in my class. Obedience!

"And what happens if we disobey?" I said while staring at him and I swear at that moment I saw his eyes getting a life again

"You are getting punished..."

THAT WAS THE END Of OBEDIENCE 🥲😭🤧 IT WAS A HELL OF A RIDE AND THANK YOU ALL FOR SUPPORTING ME THROUGHOUT THE STORY. THERE WERE DAYS I WAS FEELING UNMOTIVATED TO WRITE BUT I WAS TRYING SO HARD FOR YOU AND KEPT WRITING BECAUSE I COULD SEE HOW MUCH YOU WERE ENJOYING IT.

AND BEFORE YOU KILL ME, I'LL WRITE A SPIN-OFF OF OBEDIENCE. I JUST WANT SOME TIME TO FEEL MOTIVATED AGAIN WITH THIS STORY.

SENSELESS IS OUT NOW!!!. A FANFIC OF JUNGKOOK. GET READY FOR ANOTHER ADVENTURE WITH ME AND I HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL THERE💜♥️🙏