Fragments Of A Broken Mind

XXXVIII

You took everything from me.

You destroyed everything I thought I had.

They don't trust me anymore.

All cause of the rumors'

That you created.

But, perhaps, they really never did.

They made me lose everything I ever had.

All the friends I'd made,

All the memories I'd created...

I had to forget all of that

And lock it away.

Cause I knew for a fact

That I'd never get them again.

All this was because of you.

I blamed you for it.

And I was right to.

But then I'd realized,

That the hatred I'd had inside,

Was only hurting me.

So, I thought about everything.

I thought long

And I thought hard.

And I forgave you.

But wasn't that a mistake?

Cause if I remember correctly,

I'd done that before.

And you proved yourself unworthy of it.

And you did just that

All over again.

But I need to break this cycle.

Cause I keep getting hurt

While you emerge unscathed.

Cause I've forgiven you thrice,

And you keep hitting back.

Harder every time.

So maybe it's time.

Maybe this time

I should try

To finally forgive myself