Fragments Of A Broken Mind

LXXIV

I remember

That night we met

I was so attracted

To your ability to be vulnerable

It was something I lacked

Something so darn refreshing

It was raw and beautiful

But I wish you didn't lie

I wish you actually were

What you showed me that night

And it may be wrong of me

Cause I was always taught

To accept people how they are

Don't wish for them to change

To fit your preferences

Cause the world would be boring

In uniformity and without art

But I truly wish

Your art had some truth

Behind it

That it wasn't all an act

That it meant so little to you

To say you love me

And turn around and kiss her

I wish you said you loved me

And meant it

Cause while you were walking away 

I was beating myself up

For not saying it back

Cause it's always the girl

That falls first

The girl that breaks her heart

By loving too fast

So, tell me why

Even though I didn't say it back

It felt like it hurt just as much

When I saw you with her

Tell me how

You said those words

Like talking about the weather

And not giving two shits

About how it would affect me

When you left with her

Tell me 

Were your fingers crossed

When you told me

That you loved me

A/N

Okay, so this is completely unconventional and s little selfish to ask in an author's note, but I'm going to do it so please don't kill me.

So, my birthday is comping up in like 20 days. I'm bad at counting days, so I'll tell you'll it's on the 21st of March. And, I have hated my birthday since I was like 10 cause it's always sad. It's during my exams and I hate people, and It's the day I was born, so my cray mind doesn't really like the day.

Anyway, last year, after my birthday, obviously, I started looking at my birthday differently, you know? I think it was September, and I just thought like, my birthday's on the Spring Equinox. It's equal parts day and night. It's equal part darkness and light. It's fucking me. 

Also, the second best part is that I was born on World Poetry day. Like, whaaaattt?? Coincidence? I think not. Lol, I am crazy.

Anyway, what I wanted was for more people to vote on my work, you know? Kinda get it to be in the top 50 at the very least in poetry? I know, I know. It's ridiuclous to ask for, and I am completely stupid and feel kinda narcissistic right now, but please? Share and vote on all my chapter things?

I love y'all so much, truly. I didn't really care about the votes and everything, I just wanted to put my work out, but if it's possible, please do try.

Love, ana_banana2103 <3