Catch Me If You Can

Chapter 11: As You Wish

Ever since I came home, I didn't know what to do with myself. I was so furious about the whole thing that happened at that motel and the fact that I had to meet Nate's parents in 4 hours was both stressing me out and making me feel absolutely disgusted. How am I supposed to look them in their eyes without telling them that their son is a narcissistic psychotic monster who likes to abuse girls for his pleasure? I was thinking about a hundred different ways on how to handle this whole situation, but I always ended in dead end.

But that's exactly what he wanted. This was all a test. He wanted to humiliate me again in front of his parents, just to see me suffer inside white trying to stay quiet about everything. And what would happen if I made a scene? I would humiliate myself either way, cuz his parents are probably eating his shit all the time and I would be deemed as the "crazy girlfriend that needs to be put in her place". But wait... does this mean that he already told them we're a couple? There's no way-

As I was dressing up, I remembered that I completely forgot to reply to Jules. Fuck. 

Hey babe, I'm sorry, I've had some stomach issues since yesterday, so I stayed home instead.

Hey babe, I'm sorry, I've ha-

No. I can't lie to her anymore. This shit isn't fair. To me, to them, to anyone. This needs to stop.

Hey babe. I'm okay. Can we meet at Fez's? Like ASAP?

Okay. Now I have to get my shit together, look "representable" for Nate's parents and catch up with Jules and Fez. I got this.

As I was walking down the street to meet up with Jules and Fez, a strong feeling of fear and paranoia hit me like a train. Ever since Nate started hitting and pulling on me, my anxiety got even worse. I thought I only felt disgust and anger when I was around him, but I've realized that I really am kinda scared of him. He was unpredictable, ruthless and selfish. Every time I stood my point or tried to disagree, he got extremely defensive even tho I wasn't attacking him. I wasn't really surprised, cuz I knew he's a narcissist, but apparently, the fear wasn't going away anytime soon. 

"Where the fuck have you been, Ver? This shit isn't funny and you couldn't even reply to my text? Whats going on with you?"

"Guys, I'm really sorry and I know I've said that many times already, but.. you really need to hear me out, alright?"

Jules was looking at me with judgement in her eyes, but I wasn't really surprised. I deserved that after everything that went down with Nate. 

"Nate picked me up in the morning and drove me to the motel. No, wait, please, listen to me.."

I rearranged my thoughts and continued with my speech of shame.

"I wasn't going about with it, but he told me he's gonna drive me to school and I didn't want to be a bitch, so I agreed. Then he made me follow him to the room and we..."

Yeah, this is it. And then he made me come several times, cuz what else you're supposed to do when a controlling maniac abduct you into a smelly ass motel? Shit.

"...and then we argued for a while, but we somehow made up and now I have even bigger problem."

"Ion know about y'all... but why the fuck would you go into a motel with Nate Jacobs?" Fez was staring me in the eyes and I didn't know how to answer this question, at all. 

"That's the case, I didn't know, okay? And then it was too late to turn around and go to school by myself."

"So you wanna tell me that Nate Fuckin Jacobs took you into a motel and he wasn't trying to harass you there? You think we're stupid?"