Daisy

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It's been one month, Felix got closer to them in just a short time. It's like, he started a new life in Korea. Each day brings a lot of happiness and joy in his life, he never experienced it in his past. He never had friends to enjoy with, to share or to celebrate his birthdays or any happiness. Now he got them and they all are caring and supporting.

He even got a person in his life that has a special role. He could think about that person whenever he feels lonely and just thinking about him the alone feeling won't last long, he would smile all the time and his happiness didn't get unnoticed by his grandmother.

But something in his heart was growing, he sometimes felt heavy in each breath he took, he felt sometimes his heart pounding even if there's no hyunjin

Felix always found him staring at a boy, alone thinking about him or rather staring at him for so long. He is happy even if it's one-sided. He didn't know hyunjin feels the same way towards him or not

They all helping his grandma in the shop. It's the weekend and at weekend the shop seems busy, so felix friends are ready to help his grandmother in the shop

Felix grandmother telling them stories about her life, childhood, and love life while they baked pastries and some are serving to customers, this felt like a home to Felix
Full of chaos.

Felix POV

"I see you are happy yongbok-ah" my grandmother said to me, I saw her smiling at me. I never met her in my life when I was a child, just now. She told me, when I was a year old my parents shifted to Australia.

"I am, I never had friends in my life and now I have. I'm happy more than I think" I said looking at a bickering hyunjin and jisung for pastry frosting, I shook my head they always fight

"You deserve to be happy, it's not your fault. I know you blamed yourself for your life but trust me it's not your fault" she told me

I never told her about my life than bullying and all but I think she knows everything

I just looked at her and she gave me a comforting smile that her wrinkles showed more, but she looks beautiful in her age.

She patted my head "you are so kind honey, it's not your fault. It's your parent's fault, they made a mistake at a young age and had you, they never loved each other before but having a child made them realize responsibilities and decided to work, they left me alone in this nonstop city. But they parted ways I think they were never compatible with each other, you know I'm happy that they had you, a beautiful Angel and that angel is with me now"

I smiled but my eyes felt teary "I'm an unwanted child for them, right?"

"It's their mistake, I told you. You have a beautiful life ahead to enjoy, you got what you want after your bad past. God is giving you a new wonderful future, there's always darkness and always a light that thought you lessons, yongbok-ah now you look for your light, and I know who it is" She smiled and looked at a boy, I followed her eyes and my eyes landed on hyunjin. I blushed and nodded

She is right.

We all sat in a living room watching a movie and enjoying our baked food. After a hectic day, we are slumped down tiredly just relaxing and chilling

"I got bored let's play something" jeongin said

"No I'm too tired to play any games" seungmin grumble he is really tired his voice says it all

"We are playing, jeongin wants to play it means we are playing" Chan announced looking bat everyone

All nodded and jisung mouthed to Chan 'whipped bitch'

Yes Chan is whipped for jeongin, they are Soo cute and obvious

We are playing secret box, and each has to write a note. We will put each note that we want for friends to know. It wasn't interesting but no one is really in a mood to think about something more interesting

First one chan took a paper, he read it aloud "who took my cheesecakes from last hangouts, tell me" it was definitely from jisung who wrote it, he eyed all of us but slowly changbin raises his hand smiling goofily

Jiusng huffed "watch, what I do to your gyu!" He smirked "HEY! NOT MY GYU!"

we all laughed
In this game, we have to tell truth, or do what was written on the paper

And next, it was seungmin and a question for hyunjin

"Tell us where you are busy these days?"

Hyunjin rolled his eyes and sighed "ok, I'm seeing Aeri but we are not dating,  yet"

Jeongin gasped "I thought aeri don't like you?"

"I think she does?" Hyunjin smirked

I felt my heart breaking in pieces why when I was getting my happiness why always there's an obstacle to oppose me to reaching it, why always this world seems so opposite to me? am I not worth it? Why? When I found my light to live further why do you have to take it away?
I tried hard to calm myself and not to break when they all seems happy

"Kang aeri?" Chan asked

Hyunjin nodded blushing after, I hate to see him blush for another person, I hate how his eyes lighting happily, I hate how that person getting all his love, I hate it all

Just then I felt something in my throat, it's paining, my heart beating So fast and my breath becomes heavy just like I was feeling these past days but it's more than that, it's paining in my heart like hell. I went to the bathroom not caring they are calling my name, I just felt like crying too. I reached to the restroom and coughed

I got shocked by what I'm looking at, I have never imagined this to happen to me. Pain is not for me, I, myself are a pain

There are petals with some blood in my hands, those beautiful petals covered in blood, sight is horrible that was enough to break me apart that what I'm getting at
It's growing and I'm feeling heavy day by day.

It's hanahaki

A one-sided love

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This was in my draft for about one year now? So yeah