Mute

Night terrors

My night terrors started the night after I lost my voice, I started Sleeping by levi more often to stop this. but nonetheless no matter how much he coddled me in his arms I was always still scared. so much so that it had become insomnia. sure people would see me smiling and playing pranks but that was something to fill the hole of which my heart had made. nothing could fill it like my voice had. but it was gone and so far It looked like I was never getting it back.

My night terrors were relentless and even though he tried he couldn't fix it. so I wandered around the HQ the first couple of weeks, that didn't turn out so well as it turned into training. levi caught in and told me to relax. but he couldn't stop me. he even hid my gear to stop me, he's not very good at hide and seek. I found it once again and took on a new tactic, titan hunting at night. id ride to the wall jump over it with the gear and slash through some Titans. it was night so they were terribly slow, everyone knew something was up but never bothered because I covered it with a mask, I like it this way. no one interferes no one gets hurt. well no one was going to get hurt. my third night is when somebody other than Levi noticed, apparently the whole team knew and never bothered to mention. they followed me and I knew they were. so I lead them on, I kept taking twists here and there making sure they lost my trail but they never did only strayed from it. this had to be the special ops. I flew over solving the first one I saw. and down it went. the trees provided cover and a good jumping height. I could see them watching me, they weren't as stealthy as I would've hoped them to be. I looked directly at their placements, glaring more like. I could feel something wobbling a Titan had taken my branch. I swung to a different tree and exuded to take notes for hanji wheel want them later on. I looked down there were more. I decided to fly off but my gear had no gas left. I didn't care and I started falling into a Titans stomach. what would be the big difference with me gone. but a sudden urge came over me, if I'm not going to try and live doesn't that mean I failed humanity? I stopped myself in the middle of the Titans throat and slit him one from the inside out and proceeded to drop down grab an extra can of gas from a dead soldier and slice him an asshole too landing firmly on the ground below. I remembered as I went down I heard Levi's group scream. I tried to convince myself it was my mind but I couldn't get the screaming out of my head. that's when I realized it wasn't in my head Petra was screaming bloody murder at me. "y/n YOU DUMBASS YOU COULD'VE DIED!" SHe yelled at me. I shrugged. "THEN WHAT WOULD LEVI DO?!" I never thought of it like that, I turned to him and gave him silence and a blank stare. ever since I drink that bullshit I can't speak back. so I've been writing and I didn't have time to write to him. I loaded the gas I stole real quick and set them up then tested it. I put it back on and turned to Petra. I grabbed her head and brought it to mine resting our foreheads together. She knew what I meant. as I left I heard what I wanted her to tell the squad. "she doesn't need you to care about her anymore, she's not afraid Of what will happen, and neither am i."
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Sorry I haven't updated in a while as a peace offering. I think you guys would like trust&promises it's another fanfictin and it's really good now go check it out my other chapters will be done soon.