Mute

Not anymore

I went to my bedroom quickly, stray tears streaming down my face. I couldn't go back to that place. to many people died, too many people were cast away to that dark world. I hated it and I had to go back to it. I sat on my bed holding my head in my hands I hadn't cried like this since my parents died. I stopped straightened myself out. I packed up my things and grabbed a couple of things I'll need to be a doctor again. I then took my last good shower, I sat down and let it rain over me. cascading down my back, I thought of the old memories and any possible good ones I might've had. none were found just bloody men looking for trouble. I went out of my room going to hanjis seeing as she was too busy I left a note on her door, saying I was going somewhere, if I put where she wouldn't like it. I knew what going underground meant, it meant being silent again, it was easy I had at least 6 years of practice. I started today, gain with the silence left alone with my thoughts. I packed the rest of my needed things. and went to Levi's quarters. I wrote a note hoping to leave it there too. but he must've heard me the door was open wide as I tried to tape it. "what do you want l/n?" I shoved the note in his face and walked away leaving him to reminisce.

Levi p.o.v.-
I saw the letter it was, just an explanation, why she won't speak. it was heartbreaking knowing she couldn't speak just to hold up her guard again, wait, why am I sad? Why would I miss her voice? it's just a voice, right? What the hell am I feeling for her? My minds twisted, my heart wrenched, and I can't stand it! Help me god. I thought as I pressed my black hair back. "Petra bring Erwin into my office" she nodded, I'm glad I caught her as she was walking by. a few minutes later eyebrows came back. "Every week I want at least enough tea to hold us both over, its the only thing that calms her."
"Why do you care about her? Has the famous captain levi become soft?"
"Shut up she's a valuable cadet."
"Yeah sure, would you like me to send rises and chocolates too? How about some condoms? You stud."
" I swear to god I will throw this damn stapler right at your face, of course your eyebrows might block it."
"Talk all you want levi, me and hanji know you like her." he said triumphantly " yup!" Hanji said popping her head inside. I groaned on anger. "eyebrows, shit glasses, I swear to god I hear one more thing about her and I'll puke."
"I didn't know I was that disgusting, levi." y/n said leaning on the door frame. "you know it's sad my only words left will be ones to someone who hates me. do me a favor while we're working together replace the condoms with apples. the only thing he'll be fucking is himself." and that was it. she walked out, anger filled and all. "leave me to be." they nodded and left. then Erwin said once last words in which I threw my stapler at him. "IM STILL LENDING CONDOMS."