Two-faced

- her moon -

[ Daeun pov ]

I end up spending the night at Jia's dorm with Chanhee. After hours of crying and movie watching and talking with them I still cannot sleep. They're both sleeping soundly but I can't stand laying in the dark in silence, so I get up and silently exit her dorm.

It's just around 2 am right now so most lights are off and everyone is in the dorms.

I walk all the way to the courtyard area and stroll around until I find a peaceful bench. The only light is coming from the crescent moon and the stars. It's so peaceful I wish I could just stay out here alone forever.

But the moment only lasts a few minutes as I hear footsteps and soft humming approaching on the left.

I glance over to see a boy I've never seen around here before. He's wearing a sweatshirt and a beanie and he looks too awake for someone sneaking out at 2 am.

Once he sees me he stops in surprise.

"Oh! I didn't think anyone else would be awake," he says. His voice is intriguing, he sounds foreign.

I decide whether to be friendly or not but I don't really have a choice as the boy walks closer to the bench.

"May I sit here?" He asks.

"Sure," I say.

He sits with a respective distance between us and we sit in silence staring at the moon. 

"I've always liked the moon," he comments.

"Same," I agree.

"Not just cause it's my last name- but because it's always changing. It changes in the exact same shape and rotation every single year yet people still find it fascinating. It's really interesting to me, because people usually get bored just scrolling through social media yet the moon that's always there finds it's way to our hearts." The boy says. "Sorry. Am I talking to much? I can be silent too."

I glance over at him. I don't have the energy to smile but I say, "no I like when people ramble."

"Good, because I do that a lot " he grins.

"Why are you so awake?" I ask bluntly.

He doesn't take it to offense at all. "I could ask you the same thing,"

"True."

"Frankly staying up this late is a regular for me. I struggle with insomnia," he explains. "You?"

"I'm not really that awake. I just can't sleep. It's not insomnia it's- it's a one time thing. It better be a one time thing." I sigh.

The boy looks at me with wonder. "I know we're strangers to each other, but sometimes I find that strangers have the best listening ears and the best advice."

I sigh, because I haven't even told Chanhee and Jia the full story because I know they're closer with Sunwoo and Jacob than they are with me. I felt weird venting to them.

"It might sound ridiculous when I say it out loud," I warn him.

"I'm fine with ridiculous," he answers.

"Well, I was rejected today. But it wasn't a flat out 'no I'm not interested' I wish it was. But anyway, he said he has feelings too but it would be selfish or something if we were together. Which I don't understand at all. And I hate that I don't understand. And I don't know how I'm gonna face him or Sunwoo or anyone," I say as a weight lifts off my shoulder.

"Damn. That's harsh," the boy says. "I don't know who this Sunwoo is- but he sounds like a jerk for rejecting you that way. So contradicting!"

"Ah, no Sunwoo isn't the one who rejected me. He's- he's my friend. And my crush's best friend. He... he's complicated. He hasn't done anything wrong but he acts to me like he has. So I don't know what's up with him," I rub my forehead. "No hes actually been... sunwoo's been great to me."