Downhearted (COMPLETE)

Part 7

April 8, 2005

It's been a couple of months and me and Mario have been getting along well, Antonio and Aurora are still dating and Carlo and Lucia are always flirting they might as well start dating. I started to like Mario and I'm pretty sure he liked me, little did I know what his real intentions were.

We were always hanging out after school, since Antonio was always with his girlfriend. We were just hanging out at the park, "so what ever happened to your friend, Antonio?" Mario asked "oh well he has a girlfriend now so you know" I replied, "Cathalina do you want a boyfriend?" He asked, I could feel my cheeks go red, "um- idk- m-maybe" I said, "could I be your boyfriend?" Mario asked as he got close to my face, my face was super red, "um-" I hesitated, "I'd like that" I said smiling, and then Mario kissed me, I felt so many emotions at that moment, happy, fear, basically every emotion you could feel! I smiled "that was my first kiss" I said "mine too" Mario said "I'm glad it was with a super pretty girl like you" he said, I smiled blushing.

Then I was walking home, I was so happy, I can't believe I got my first kiss and my first boyfriend, then I started thinking about what mother would think, I paused for a bit...I'm sure it will be fine, I assured myself.

I walked in the door, Mother wasn't there, "Mother?" I called out, no one was here. I texted her 'where are you?' She didn't answer, minutes turned into hours and still no reply, she didn't even read it. I started to feel really worried, 2 hours passed by, it was 7pm and I felt so worried and nervous that crying, where was mother? Then I heard the door open, I ran to the door, but it wasn't mother, it was Antonio. I quickly wiped my tears, "um Cathy your mom called my mom and said she'll be out for a bit, if we can have you spend the night" he said "oh um that's ok I'll be fine" I said, I was kind of nervous because I didn't want him to know I was crying, in the whole 9 years I've known Antonio, he's never seen me cry. He sighed "Cathy you're mom said she's not coming back" he said, I was so shocked and had a weird nervous feeling, that like wasn't normal. I tried to keep my tears back "where did she go?" I asked "she didn't say" Antonio said "but she said she will come visit you in a month" he said, I ran into his arms and I started to cry, I felt so bad, it was a feeling I couldn't explain.

I went to go stay with Antonio and his mom, we were having dinner, Antonio's mom put some plates of food on the table, "I made special Korean food just for you Cathalina" she said "thank you so much" I said, I was feeling that feeling again, we had all sat down and started eating, there was silence for a few seconds, then Antonio mom said "Antonio has had a gf for a while now, do you have a bf, Cathalina?" She asked, my face went red, "oh um" I said nervously, "uh y-yeah" I said, Antonio's eyes widened "is it Mario!?" He asked, Antonio didn't really like Mario, he says that he's just trying to use me, "um well yeah" I said, "ooo, who's Mario?" Antonio's mom said "w-well um" I said "A piece of s**t" Antonio said, His mom smacked him on the head, "watch your mouth" she said, I giggled a bit, then I realized the feeling had gone away, I felt like I was happy again.

Later, Antonio's mom showed me to my room, "this used to be my daughter's room" she said "oh yeah didn't Adelina move to America?" I asked "yeah I'm so proud of her" she said, "you can get the rest of your stuff tomorrow" she said, then Antonio walked in, "aw you came to say good night to Cathalina" his mom said "oh um yeah~" he said which was obviously not the case "good night Cathy" he said "good night Omma" he said to his mom.

A little while later, I got into bed, I thought about mother, was she really not coming back? Where was she? Did she abandoned me? What am I gonna do? What if I never see her again? All these thoughts were racing through my mind and I before I knew it tears were rolling down my face, I couldn't stop these thought and I felt like I was gonna have a whole break down.

I went to the bathroom and I cried my eyes out, I didn't even try to be quiet, I didn't care if anyone heard me. Then I heard a knock on the door, "oh um just a sec" I said and quickly wiped my tears, it was Antonio "are you ok?" He asked, I looked at him and I started sobbing, I felt disgusted with myself, why was I crying so much, my eyes were starting to burn, I wanted to see mother.