The Girl on the Sidelines || TAENNIE

[ 𝘅𝘅𝘅 ] 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗿𝘁𝘆

┗━𝗝𝗲𝗻𝗻𝗶𝗲'𝘀 𝗣𝗢𝗩 | ah, shit.
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𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗿𝘁𝘆.

Have you ever had a thought on why life is a piece of shit?

I often do, usually, the times when people cross the limit of my patience. For example, a person that you are currently avoiding suddenly barged into your classroom AND LIED TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU.

My head is getting a headache from the entire situation, I'm starting to lose my composure. After that bastard left, the room flocked around my desk like pesty mosquitos around poo.

I can't control this any longer, why does he keep putting himself in my life anyway? Does his guitar string matter to him that much?

Damn you past Jennie Kim, you recklessly let him back into your life again. His handsome face is not enough to be a consideration!

Okay, I need to calm down. Breathe in, breathe ou—

"Yah! Kim! Are you seriously dating OUR TAEHYUNG?!"

THAT'S IT, I'M GONNA FUCK THIS PLACE OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

"WOULD YOU JUST SHUT UP AND USE THAT DAMN MOUTH ON SOMETHING USEFUL FOR ONCE? HOW ANNOYING!" I angrily shouted at the girl with my left eye twitching in anger. I clenched my hand tightly, stopping myself to get angry any further.

The room became quiet and they scattered back to their seats, whispering amongst themselves. That's when it hit me, I'd lost it.

Oh, shit shit shit.

I was supposed to be the dumb girl that laughs like a madwoman. My hard work after all these years shouldn't go down in the drain, I worked my butt off to perfect this.

Clenching my teeth, I muttered to myself. "I don't want to meet him, but it looks like I don't have a choice."

And of course, I didn't, the whole school was in a frenzy when they heard that their "oppa" has a girlfriend. This is clearly fake news, but they are just too dumb to realize.

I decided that be it would better, if I act, as usual, acted like everyone is normal and that I'm too dumb to know everything. That would be better than storming into the music room to beat the shit out of him.

Ah, I'm getting paranoid. This was not supposed to happen, he should have kept his place. He would only hurt himself if he gets further, I'm trying to save his life here.

What would happen if father knew? fuck.

I anxiously skipped towards my lockers, locking that fake smile and cheeriness as I head my way. The crowd kept sending ugly-looking glares my way.

People love drama, is my life that interesting to be talked about? It would have been better if they don't believe the rumors, the topic about me for heaven's sake.

I need to calm down, breathe in, breathe out. It had been a long time since I got angry, this is frustrating.

Kim Taehyung, that bastard. He started everything and I will make him end everything. I don't need drama in my life and I had enough.

I placed my books on the lockers, shut them close, and didn't bother to put stickers on my locker as I marched towards the music room.

He should not meddle in my life, he's out of my life after he ghosted me during childhood.

I had enough, why did life keep throwing things in my direction. It already hurts too much, too much...

Fighting back the tears, I made them suck back into my eyes, my head facing up.

Never show your weak side, everyone will use it against you. Never be dependent on someone, you are alone.

I am alone.

I clenched my fist and opened the music room door, a forced smile on my lips. "Good afternoon, is Kim Taehyung here? I need to tell him something."

I first made eye contact with Namjoon-oppa that rubbed his neck with a small smile. "Taehyung will be here any minute now, and Jennie, I didn't know that the reason you left here is that you're dating Tae. We all would be chill about it, what a shame," he placed a hand on my shoulder and led me inside to reveal everyone who shot me warm smiles.

Smiles that had been deceived.

They were all congratulating me, and I couldn't move. I froze. My vision getting blurry, they'll get involved too. No...

That can't be...

They were all bright and cheery, sending congratulations on something that wasn't real. Something that was never there in the first place.

A sudden memory flashed inside my head. No...NO!

"I'm sorry!" I shouted, making them flinch in shock. I closed my eyes tightly and ran away. I need to run away, fast.

Fast enough to not reveal the face that I've hid. I desperately picked up the pieces that started to crack.

No...

Tear after tear fell on my cheeks as I ran past the endless crowds of students. I felt dizzy, the world is spinning and the echoes in my head started ringing.

Runaway, I need to run away.

From everyone, from everything.

I need to run away from myself. This...it's suffocating me.

My chest heaved heavily as I ran, ran without thinking. Running like my life is on the verge of death that I need to run to live.

To live in this cruel world.

I gasped for air when my palms landed on my knees. My mind went blank when I glanced around my surroundings.

Where am I?

Wait, it was that same road that I've run to when father came to school. I bit my lower lip and slumped down, landing on my knees as my body started to shake violently.

B-Breath in, br-reath out.

They are just memories, they are not happening now. Y-You're okay. You're safe.

For now.

Jennie now isn't the time.

I gasped for air again then my body fell over and I was on all four. Lifting my right hand to massage my heart from the clenching pain. I bit my lower lip to stifle my cries.

To muffle the pain.

Tears shakily fell on the cemented floor as I tried to catch my breath. My head is pounding and my knees are shaking.

I can't ask for help.

Who would help a girl like me?

I sarcastically chuckled, yea right. Who would?

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Hi, I'm back. Sorry for the late update, school and laziness do not work together, I swear.

Thank you for the 340+ followers, I'm really thankful that ya'll still support me even though it took me weeks to update a new chapter. I would do my best!

Keep fighting, battling through life is not an easy journey. I believe in you and someday, you'll achieve the happiness that you deserve. Love you.

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