The Girl on the Sidelines || TAENNIE

[ 𝘅𝘅𝘅𝗶𝗶𝗶 ] 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗿𝘁𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗲𝗲.

┗━𝗝𝗲𝗻𝗻𝗶𝗲'𝘀 𝗣𝗢𝗩 | bench talks with him.
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𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗿𝘁𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗲𝗲.

I was panting when Taehyung stopped on an empty bench in the street, he laughed, looking away when I sent a glare in his direction. I kept cussing at his long legs. "You should hurry up!" he teased, an ugly smirk on his face.

I raised a fist and hit his arm with all my might, making him let out an oft sound. "If you'll complain about me being slow, you should have carried me!" letting out a complaint with pursed lips, arms crossed. 

He wrinkled his nose, obviously disagreeing with the idea inside his head. My lips mocked his expression and he busted out laughing, making me feel irritated more. "Is this your planned escape? This escape makes me wanna escape."

Taehyung doubled in laughter, his hand on his stomach as he leaned against the light post. "Calm down, woman. Can't you wait?" he teased, tilting his head slightly in a teasing manner. I let out a huff, deciding to just sit down and ignore his antics.

"I can wait for you all day," I nonchalantly replied, staring at the empty road ahead. My lips let out a sigh, I'm lucky to have a breather from that family. I love them, but there are times that they are...too much.

I felt a presence beside me, Taehyung sat down with an arm on the bench's backrest with a lollipop in his mouth. What? where did he get that from? He raised his brows when he met my gaze, "What? you want some?" he asked, stuffing his hand inside his pockets.

I nodded my head and reached out for the lollipop in his mouth, leaning closer but stopped when I saw the expression on his face. It was my turn to smirk, "I do, would you give me some?" I teased, and his ears turned red.

I stayed in that position, occupying myself to gaze in his beautiful eyes. It captivated me for some reason, my lips curved up when I moved my hand to brush out his bangs to straighten them out since the hair looked messy. 

"As thanks, I brushed your hair. Can I have the lollipop now?" my body leaning back on the chair, hand reaching out, awaiting the lollipop that he offered. Taehyung was still frozen in his place, looking cute in some way.

We can't tell him that, can't we?

"Hey," I called him once again, snapping my fingers in front of him. His eyes blinked fast, shaking his head abruptly. My lips pursed, stopping myself to let out a small giggle. "Here," he placed the lollipop on my hand before moving his body away, his face facing the opposite direction.

I laughed a bit seeing his red ears. "Thanks," I told him, a smile on my lips. He just nodded his head, and we went back in silence. I shifted my gaze at the bright moon before me, it was shining, along with the many stars around it.

"Hey Taehyung, have you ever wondered how peaceful it would be to be up there?" I asked him, still gazing up to the skies. 

"I never did, why would you ask?" he replied, he probably turned his head to look at me. I could practically melt from his gaze.

"It's just, whenever I look up, the sky is always calm, and whenever it's raining, it would become better since a rainbow would appear afterward, and the plants grew. I would be like, 'Wow, it would be nice to be up there, huh?'" I chuckled at myself. He went silent again, my eyes glanced at him, it looks like he was thinking hard.

I grew worried, I placed a hand on his shoulder. "Taehyung, you okay?" I questioned the boy, he met my gaze and just shook his head. "It's nothing, nothing really," it was suspicious, but I want to respect his privacy. 

Another minute passed, and we both stayed silent, gazing at the stars above us until Taehyung broke the silence. "Yeah, I wanted to go up there as well..." he said in a small voice. Without thinking, I grabbed his hand and held on tight. 

"You're strong, Taehyung-ah," I whispered, a sad smile on my lips. It seems like he understood what I meant. "You too, Jennie-ssi. You've been through a lot," he made eye contact with slightly teary eyes. I bit my lip and held on to his hand tighter, not wanting to let the tears fall.

"I-I don't think that I'm strong at all," my lips quivered when I couldn't hold the pent-up emotions. Tears slid down my cheeks as I let go of his hands to cover my face. Ashamed of myself, I don't want to be viewed as strong, because I'm not.

I'm not strong.

He brushed my hair gently before pulling me towards my chest. I felt warm for the first time in my life, more tears fell and he just continued brushing my hair without saying any word. My hands fisted on his shirt as I continued to sob.

The feelings that I've bottled up for years are suddenly overflowing, the sudden comfort that I've received made my heartache. I-I couldn't stop crying. It won't stop, but Taehyung didn't mind. He let me be vulnerable.

I rubbed my wet eyes and pushed his chest, embarrassed at myself but he held me firmly. "Let it out, I won't judge. Let it fall until you feel better," I bit my lower lip and held on to him tightly.

I never experienced this before...

"Taehyung...I think I need advice," I looked up to see his brown orbs looking down at me. He smiled, wiping the leftover tears on my cheeks with his thumb. "Say what you want to say and I'll do my best to help you so, I could help you divide the feeling."

"Divide the feeling?" I asked, and he smiled. "Yeah, it's like this. When you open up to someone, it's like you're dividing the feeling," he explained. "Is it like when I open up to you, you'll feel what I feel?" I asked him back, and he nodded.

"I'm sorry if I'll make you feel down," I bit my lip, guilty. "You didn't make me feel down or anything. It's just like I feel what you feel," he patted my head. "Don't be afraid to open up, I'll be here, okay?"

I think my heart just fluttered.

Is it alright if I trust him?

Letting out a deep breath, I opened my mouth and told him everything. From childhood, up until this day, the pent-up feelings that I had, the experiences that I had to face every day, he was listening and I felt lighter when I did.

How...How did he do it?

"Someday, it will all be gone, right?" I asked, staring up at the sky.

"It will trust me," and now, I trust you.

"It's all in your mind, your mindset actually. Just let positivity in your mind speak up, then everything will be all good."

Why is my heart fluttering at a time like this? For the first time, I felt at ease. It made me feel like I could try again...

What is this?

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It's been a long while since I update no? Sorry about that, finals are near and I'm about to move up to Senior High. Time flies so fast.

I hope you all like like the chapter, a little insider, the last part was inspired by the advice from my crush. It's on chat, but you get my point HAHAHA 

(I think I'm falling for him harder because of that, I swear he's a green flag compared to all of my previous crushes. He's a classmate too, I'll get to see him on pictorial day /sob with a grin HAHAHAH)

What do you think of the story so far? Am I moving it too slow or? HSAHAHAH feel free to say anything, I'll take note of it.

See you all in the next chapter! Love you all and stay safe!

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