The Girl on the Sidelines || TAENNIE

[ 𝘅𝘅𝘅𝗶𝘃] 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗿𝘁𝘆 𝗳𝗼𝘂𝗿

┗━𝗝𝗲𝗻𝗻𝗶𝗲'𝘀 𝗣𝗢𝗩 | rewinding to the past
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𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗿𝘁𝘆 𝗳𝗼𝘂𝗿.

I looked up back in the sky, smiling softly. Suddenly, we were out of our silent trance as a loud bang was heard. Placing a hand on my chest, while let out a sigh of relief when it was just a black cat that fell on the trash can.

I guess that became my wake-up call.

I want to avoid him. I couldn't help myself, the feeling of being vulnerable, it's a feeling that I'm not used to. Why did I open up to a guy who hated my guts?!

My mouth let out a cough, awkwardly standing up as I dusted off the invisible dust from my pants. "It's...it's getting late, we should go back now," I told him with a small smile, internally praying that he'll agree.

Taehyung looked up at me, but nodded afterward, standing up with his hands inside his pockets. "Let's go," he didn't waste any time and walked ahead of me. I scurried after him and stayed silent while thinking deeply in my thoughts.

We both returned after the walk, not uttering another word. It got me thinking, why do I feel like I wanted to be him?

Like to never let go and stay in the comfort he brought. The weird feeling whenever I'm with him, I'm not used to it at all.

I shook my head, I can't. I shouldn't harbor this kind of feeling anymore, I'm confused and certain that this shouldn't progress more than friends.

Little things start to cloud my mind, and every bit of insecurity of mine appeared one by one. Making me shake as I held my head.

Slowly walking towards the bed, I laid down before curling up, embracing my knees. I kept shaking my head while muttering no under my breath.

Feelings are useless in this kind of world, they destroy your soul for being vulnerable towards other people who don't give a fuck towards you, yet that feeling made you believe that there's...a chance.

A chance for them to change, but it's all lies. All lies HAHAHAHAHA

Who changes for good anyways?

I bit my lower lips and closed my eyes shut, Taehyung why did you make me feel like this?

He might be playing with my feelings since I became vulnerable toward him. I knew it, I shouldn't trust Jisoo.

I started to panic, I've managed to control my face and emotions with other people, but with you...I don't understand at all.

Why do I feel warm when I'm with you? Even though I knew that you used to loathe me. You used to be...

My lips let out a sigh, trying to clear my head once more. I don't want to admit it, but signs keep showing up.

I even opened up to him or anyone at all, I don't do that. Never.

Am I starting to like him? That Kim Taehyung?

My cheeks felt hot, and my body felt tingly all of the sudden. It's a weird feeling, I'm not used to it at all. I immediately stood up and went towards my wall mirror to look at my appearance.

My disheveled hair grew longer, the first thought that entered my mind. When I lowered my gaze, I locked contact with my eyes, seeing my face was red.

I immediately closed my eyes and jumped onto my bed, covering my face with my pillow as I tried to scream with the sudden realization.

I couldn't sleep, I couldn't blink myself tired to sleep. This kind of thought won't stop, no matter how tired I am.

I need answers, I grabbed my small bag ang placed some snacks and other necessities that I need, exiting through the window as I slipped on a black hoodie. Gulping from the height, I took a deep breath and leaped towards the near tree, safely landing on the ground.

My body shook from shock, but I didn't let that stop me as I exited the gates, and into the night. My hand clenched tightly on the cloth near my heart, ignoring the voices that told me to go back home.

But was that place my home?

I bit my lower lip and continued to walk to a place that I wouldn't dare to go or even think of visiting. I stop to catch my breath as I stood before a 2-story house with a stone pathway towards the entrance. Flowers and plants decored their small home and used all my willpower not to turn away.

Clenching my fists, I marched towards the front door and ring the bell. I closed my eyes, not wanting to see that I did this. Ah, I wanna leave already, I don't wanna see.

"J-Jennie?" a soft voice spoke, a voice that I knew too well. A voice that I avoid listening to.

"Mrs. Kim, may I speak to your daughter?" I spoke, without any emotions. Forced me to choke all the emotions that are desperate to flow out.

"What do you mean? You're also my daughter, Jenn—" she reached out towards me but I took a step back, a frightened look on my features.

I quickly composed myself, avoiding her teary gaze. "As I said mam, may I speak with your daughter, Kim Jisoo?"

It was quiet, so when I looked up, she was quietly wiping her tears with her hand, a smile on her lips. I then looked away once more. "I'll...I'll call her to meet you, please come inside—"

"I'm fine here outside, no need for the warm welcome, Mrs. Kim," I cut her off, not wanting to enter the home she built with her new and perfect family. I'd rather cut my throat than do that.

"Okay..." she nodded her head and motioned towards the table and chair in the foyer, I nodded my head and quietly sat down, fiddling with my fingers, not wanting to talk with her more.

My body shook a bit when the door shut close, then heard her quiet sobs. I pretended that I haven't heard anything and continued distracting myself.

A few minutes afterward, I met the person that I want to talk to. "Jennie? Do you need anything?" Jisoo exited the door with a tray in her hand, filled with snacks and soft drinks.

"I need to talk to you."

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Hello, it's been a while hehe. So I'm gonna move up now, soon actually. A few more days, it'll be my birthday and I'll have the moving up ceremony.

I'll be back on updating this book and I need to reread my notes to remember some parts of the plot HAHAHAHAH

So yeah, it's good to be back. Love you guys!

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