Burning Rose

One

Rose's POV

I have been sitting in my bed for quite a while now. There is just so many things happening right now and I don't know how will I survive. Emotionally I mean. Hours passed and all I could think about was Dr. Volmer. After he left I felt sad for pushing him away. But he did say he will be in his office if I wanted to talk. But hours passed and I don't even know if he still is there. 

But I need to know. I need to see him.

So I get up, don't even bother to fix my looks, and head out of my room. I am still in my pyjamas, but that is not the main concern here right now. 

I head down the corridor and make my way to his office. I don't know why, but the closer I get, more I get pulled to him. I want to knock on the door but then think. It was foolish of me to come here. He is probably sleeping right now or is really tired and doesn't have the time to listen to some teenage problems. My hand is inches away from the door and then I turn around to leave when all of a sudden the door opens.

˝Rose. Is everything alright?˝ he asks me with concern. 

˝Yes. I just wanted to talk, but you must be really tired. I'll go to my room now.˝ I wanted to hurry, not to bother him, but he grabbed my hand and said

˝Nonsense. Come in.˝ he gently pulled me in his office and pointed to a chair. ˝Sit down. What did you want to talk about?˝ he said slowly with calmness on his face. 

I felt kind of nervous, my hands started sweating but I sat down. I tried to organize my thoughts, just to know where to begin. In the meantime, he was leaning on his desk in front of me and quietly observed me. I felt the shivers going down my spine while he was looking at me. 

I'm not  afraid of him. He just makes me feel some way I can't explain and I think he knows that too. 

˝Lately, I think I have been feeling really better.˝ I began. ˝But these latest incidents made me so nervous and I really need to talk to someone.˝

I looked up to see his face and his expression haven't changed, he just listened. I didn't know if I should proceed or to just shut up and say it was nothing. But then I thought, I will have to eventually talk to someone about it. Unless it will haunt me forever. I started shaking and put my hands under my things to cover up the shivering.  

˝Oliver, as you my figure it out, is not my boyfriend. He has never been. He was the one.........˝ I felt my eyes fill up with tears, but I continued ˝.......that raped me a few months ago.˝ A few tears fell down my cheeks, but his hand was right there to wipe them away. At first I was too scared and ashamed to look up, but when I did he just gave me a little nod to continue. 

˝I was at a party with my best friend. And he was there to with two of his friends. We started talking, but after a while I wanted to get rid of them. But they followed me.....˝

By the time I finished telling him the story I felt him tensed, but still said nothing to let me finish talking. 

˝Please say something. Something. I can't bear this silence from you.˝ I begged him and held his hand in mine. I needed his touch so badly right now. I needed him. He stood up from the table and knelt down in front of me and cupped my face. I looked him in the eyes and waited for him to say something.

˝Thank you for telling me˝ he said. Then he kissed me. Like literally kissed me. I was so confused in that moment, but didn't want to ruin it. I felt so much weight fall down from me. Immediately I felt a few pounds lighter.

He backed off, but I wanted more so I followed his lips but he said ˝I was waiting so long for this˝ he stand up and extended his hand. I grabbed it and stand up. He pulled me to him so tight I almost forgot how to breathe. He stroked my cheek and kissed it. He then kissed the other cheek and with that kisses he also dried the tears away. 

Then again he kissed me with such passion I have never felt. He was so good at kissing. The next thing I know is that he lifted me up and took me to a table and gently lowered me on it. Everything was going so fast so I backed off and looked him in the eyes. I wanted to say something but didn't manage to put it into words. 

˝Too fast?˝ he said and I nod. We were both breathing very fast. Then he slowly started kissing my lips again. Sweet little kisses. I wanted to feel him closer to me. His hands were gently searching my hips and waist and then the back. But it wasn't close enough. I put my hands around his neck and pulled him closer to me. On me. 

He then, without breaking the kiss, lifted me up and took me out of his office to another room. We didn't pass the hall. It was a room next to his office. With a big bed and a mirror in the corner of the room. He lay me down on the bed and climbed on top of me. I felt he was really excited now so this was for real. 

He slowly undressed me and I slowly undressed me and I was not disappointed when I saw him naked on top of me. The muscular body many man much younger would have wished for.

I was a bit ashamed of my body at first, but he just knew how to touch me and what to say to make me more comfortable. He was so gentle with me, not making anything I would feel uncomfortable. 

˝You have a beautiful body Rose. Don't be ashamed of it.˝ he said while kissing every inch of my body.

After we were done he lay on his back and pulled me closer on his chest. I was so tired till now, that I just waited what he will do. He pulled me closer and covered me with a blanket. Then he kissed my hair and draw little circles on my back which threw me to sleep immediately.