Burning Rose

The morning after

Rose's POV

It has been a long time since I slept so well. I woke up, still laying on his chest. He was so warm and hugging me around my waist. He was still sleeping. Suddenly I got that feeling, that what I was doing, what we were doing, was wrong. I felt guilty. He was my doctor after all. I felt so embarrassed that I felt the redness coming up my cheeks. 

I tried slowly and quietly to twist my way out of his embrace, but it felt almost impossible. I removed his hand from my waist and looked him in his face to see if he was waking up. I managed to get his hand off me and to sit up on the bed when he woke up.

˝Good morning. Where are you going?˝ he said with his morning voice. He extended his hand and slowly and gently as possible started stroking my back. And again the shivers went down my spine and I looked back at him, guilt still filling my mind.

˝I just wanted to get to my room to take a bath.˝ I said and right as I wanted to stand up he pulled me back on the bed, under him and locked me under his body with all his weight. 

˝Oh, but I am not done with you.˝ he said with a deep voice. He was searching my face and started kissing my neck very softly. I moaned and wanted to release myself to him, but the voice in the back of my head kept telling me that this is not right. 

˝B-but.....I-I...˝ I tried to say something, while he was kissing me and searching my hips and waist. I was breathing very deeply and my heart beat rose. He stopped for a second and looked me in the face with concern.

˝What is it? Is there something you don't like?˝ he asked me and I immediately said

˝No, no......I mean yes.... ughhhh well I don't know.˝ I stutter still drunk from the desire he filled me with right now. ˝I mean I feel so wrong for doing this. Not that I don't like it I just feel guilty˝

He smiled softly and moved some hair from my face and again kissed me, but this time on my mouth. ˝Rose, there is nothing wrong in what we are doing. You probably feel guilty because of the situation or the age gap, but apart from that...there is nothing wrong with us satisfying each other.˝ 

At his words my legs shook. He waited a second for my respond and I realized that he is right. There should be nothing wrong with that, but my parents must not find out. He was looking at me with that look again.

˝Don't look at me like that.˝ I said.

˝Like what?˝ he said with a little smirk on his face.

˝Like you want to do things to me.˝ I said again and he laughed. 

˝Oh, you don't even know what I am going to do to you.˝ he almost whispered while going down on me. ˝Not even in the slightest.˝

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After about half an hour when we finished making love, we lay in the bed hugged. He was drawing little circles on my back and from time to time planted a kiss on my head. I started thinking again about us. But now I wasn't worried if what we are doing was so wrong, I was just thinking that it probably isn't the best idea to tell anyone for this. 

˝My parents must not know.˝ I said so loud I surprised myself. His hand stopped for a second. He was quiet for a few moments, then said

˝I wasn't really planning on telling them that I am sleeping with theirs daughter, who happens to also be my patient.˝ he said and I laughed. He smiled too. 

I leaned on my palms and looked him in the face softly smiling. ˝I didn't just mean this. Please don't tell them what happened to me. I don't want them to know this part of my life. They would probably hate me.˝ I looked down to my hands but he touched my chin and lifted my head up for my eyes to meet his. 

˝They wouldn't hate you. It wasn't your fault. You know how many young girls get sexually harassed and they can't defend themselves? The last thing they would do was hate you.˝ he said while cupped my cheek.

I just stared at him, not knowing what to say, so I just lay down on his chest and said ˝Just don't leave me, please. I need you.˝

˝You know, we will have to get out eventually. I have work to do and you have therapies today.˝ he said and we both laughed. 

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After a while we did get out of the bed and dressed ourselves then headed out. He also gave me a kiss for goodbye. We decided not to show affection in front of other people and patients and I think that for now this is a wise choice.

I went to my room and took a shower, then I remembered I haven't eaten today at all. So I dressed myself and went to the dining hall before the breakfast time was over. On my way there I saw Dr. Volmer and some other workers talking to him on the other side of the hallway and he looked at me and watched me walking down. I felt butterflies in my stomach and just smiled to myself, but I continued because I was really hungry. 

After breakfast I went for a run, but now I decided not to go in the way of the village, but to the meadow I usually went to play my guitar. It was a good run before the therapy. 

I came back to my room to take a quick shower and to prepare myself and then I just thought. I felt good. I was happy again after a long long time. But then I thought about for how long I will still be here and my face went pale. I was planed to stay here for less than a month. I have to talk to him and we have to find a way for me to stay here.