Burning Rose

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Rose's POV

Things have been going very good lately. I have been feeling amazing. Dr. Volmer and I have been seeing each other every evening now, plus we had our moments through the day sometimes. 

There is this new guy the whole building has been talking about lately. I think his last name is Lolckhart. As much as I know he is trouble, because Dr. Volmer has been taking extra care of me not to cross paths with him or even see him. I had asked him why is that and he just replied that he has some serious issues. I can see this situation is bothering him very much, but I know it is in his best interest to help this guy.

Also my days are counted here. I have totally lost the track of time, cuz of the many things that are happening here. I think I only have two weeks until I go home. Haven't spoken to my parents in a couple of days, but I don't think they mind. They have gone on vacation somewhere in Europe, don't remember exactly where. Lately I have been thinking, about me leaving this place, a lot. I don't really want to go, but when I remember my best friend and my parents, whom I haven't seen for almost two months and I get so homesick. 

Plus I have to find a way how to start a conversation about that with Dr. Volmer. I don't even know where to begin. I mean I have to tell him, he knows when I am leaving, but do I have to remember him? I think I will start the conversation tonight. The sooner the better they say.

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It is late in the evening. The rain is pouring and the window is open in Dr. Volmer's bedroom, while we are laying on his bed, naked and I am curled up in his arms. This is how we were spending our evenings after dinner most of the time. In his bedroom having sex or just hugging each other and talking. Sometimes we didn't even have to talk. We were speaking with physical touch. 

And tonight we were doing some of both. We were not speaking, he was lazily moving his arm up and down my spine, which gave me goosebumps every single time. And I was stuck in my mind for about a while when he spoke

˝What's wrong?˝ he asked.

˝Nothing. Just thinking.˝ I said.

˝About what.˝

I was silent. I didn't know if I should say it right now or just wait for a couple of days so I wouldn't ruin this moment. 

˝Rose?˝ he asked again and stopped the hand movement on my back.

I rose on the bed so I would be looking into his eyes, but I didn't have the courage to say anything, because I knew this probably meant goodbye in the nearest future. So I just kept a straight face.

He rose on his elbows and calmly said ˝You can speak to me.˝

I knew it t is now or newer.

˝You know that in two weeks I am going back home, right?˝ I said quietly.

He let out a long breath and said ˝Yes. I have been thinking about that a lot.˝

I was kind of surprised about what he said. I didn't even think he would be concerned about this as much as I.

˝So what does that means about us?˝ I managed to say.

At first I had a feeling he was hesitating, but then he finally said ˝I mean, you could stay here if you wanted. I can take care of you just like I did till now.˝

It kind of shocked me, but I said ˝What about my friends and family, and, and school? I have everything back there-˝

˝But you have me here.˝ he cut me off.

We both fell silent for a moment.

˝I mean you're kind of right, but I can't just leave everything behind and run off to a foreign country to a man I know for two months. How do you even know everything will work out between us. What if we fall out of love? I have no where to go-˝