Kinsley
February 20
2:14 am
It's two in the morning and I just wanted to sleep but I couldn't. Dominique messaged me earlier from a different number however I didn't respond, instead I blocked that number as well and since then I just put my phone on so not disturb and I've been binge watching blood and water on Netflix
Somebody knocked on my door before opening it so I looked and saw it was Kyran. It kinda surprised me cause Kyran rarely comes in my room unless he need to
"You can't sleep either?" I asked him while he sat on the side of my bed looking at me. I just laughed a little then shook my head "don't you hate when that happens. Especially when we gotta get up in a couple of hours for school but your mind don't care cause it wanna keep you up and thinking about stuff that shouldn't even be on it. Dominique texted me, but don't worry. I blocked the new number and I didn't even bother reading the paragraph. All I needed to see was the first line before blocking him"
"Dominique got shot" Kyran just randomly said which made me freeze. I looked at him and caught myself laughing a little
"No he didn't. He just texted me earlier"
"Kinsley he got shot like an hour ago" Kyran told me with a straight face "he was at ihop and everybody out there saw it. Right now he in real critical condition"
"Kyran, no. I just-.. he just-..." I reached over and grabbed my phone. Once it lit up i just saw hella notifications. Missed calls, dm's, texts. I scrolled through the notifications seeing Dominique's name constantly being mentioned so I tossed my phone to the side and shook my head
"I... I don't even care Kyran. I don't talk to him so what does it matter that I know. I don't care" I told him while I got up out of the bed
"Kinsley"
"I don't care, you can just go back to bed cause it don't matter. After what he did to you why should I be sad for him?" I questioned, grabbing one of my jackets, put it on along with a pair of slides and left the room going downstairs
Once I made it downstairs I went out to the backyard, closed the door behind me and went to sit on the steps resting my chin in my hand.
I felt my eyes start to water but I wiped them away which didn't help because once I looked down, the tears just dropped. I hated that I cared because I didn't want to. I'm not supposed to
I continued to wipe the tears from my eyes as they kept falling, hearing the door open. I looked back and saw that it was Kyran. He came and sat beside me, sighing
"I don't care. He can die for all I care so I don't even know why I'm crying"
Kyran didn't say anything. Instead he wrapped his arm around me and I laid my head on his shoulder while we just sat there
"You know how I feel about the nigga. But I know you. And I know you don't mean that shut so shut that shit up and just cry. I got you"
I just nodded and let out a breath while the tears fell
"Why can't I just hate him?"
"Sometimes you can't help who you love" Kyran muttered
"Well I just wish I didn't care... and I wish he wasn't so fuckin stupid"
"Well kinsley he chose to go the route he went. He chose to live with his uncle when he could've moved with his momma when she chose to leave after his daddy died. Instead he wanted to stay and follow behind his uncle cause he saw the money and wanted that fast life"
"Well now I hope he see it ain worth it...."
"He better hope he can live to see it"
"Really Kyran?"
