Either Me or Him

Chapter 1

Kelly and I have been friends for a long time and over time we became kind of inseparable. Usually, wherever Kelly was, I could be found there as well.
Over the years this feeling got so intense that I began to notice that Kelly was starting to act like she had a feeling that was bigger than friends, she seemed to be in love with me.
I thought this was strange, but I didn't want to jump to conclusions about something she was never sure what it was, until the day she kissed me. That day I felt a mixture of sensations! I was upset but at the same time it felt like I liked it, you know? There were times that I felt confused about what I felt too, but I fought against it, for a number of reasons, and now I have one hell of a reason to fight it, and that is the fact that I'm engaged to Jay.
But still, her kiss seemed to have moved me. It's just that I was confused and ended up reacting in a somewhat over-the-top way and ended up fighting with her.

"- Kelendria, why did you do that? What's gotten into you? We're best friends and you know I'm about to get married." I said in a tone of disapproval for her attitude.

"- Sorry, Beyoncé! I couldn't control the urge to kiss you anymore. Please forgive me! It was stronger than me." She said almost crying.

"- Kelly, where did this urge come from? You've never done this before!"

"- Bey, it's complicated to say this, but I..." She stopped in mid-stride.

"- You what, Kelendria? Speak up!" I demanded.

"- It's just that..." She braked again. "- I'm in love with you!"

Those words were right to my heart.

If I were to say that I never wished that, it would be understatement on my part, however, every time I came to imagine it I was thwarted by her own attitudes that showed me otherwise at times.

"- Kelendria, I don't even know what to say." I said putting my hand on my head.

"- I thought you saw me as a friend and now you come and throw all this on me. Why is it only now that you're telling me this? Why didn't you say so before I was engaged to Jay? Is it because you want to push me away to be with him?"

"- What? You've got to be kidding me, Beyoncé!" Said Kelly beginning to get upset. Seeming not to believe this crazy theory I came up with!

"-No, I'm not kidding. You want him because he's more famous than us and richer, so you're trying to confuse me with these things just to make me fall in love with you and dump him." I know I'm just bullshitting now. Kelly is not that kind of person, but I am so lost in what has happened that I don't even know what I am talking about.
"- So you think I'm that kind of person, Beyoncé? I would never be capable of such a thing and you know it very well!
You know what? Forget everything I said and forget about me!
You don't have to doubt my character to try to run away from how I feel about you."

"-I'm sorry for what I said, Kelly! I'm just confused by everything that just happened. I don't even know what I'm talking about!
Kelly, I don't want this to get in the way of us and our group.
Please understand me!" I tried to snap back, but I guess it's too late.

"- No, Bey, you do know what you said!

Even though I was upset, I never doubted your character, and you just doubted mine, thinking that I would harm you to be with that guy who has caught a lot of asses. The only one without character is him! But be happy!
And as for the group, can you relax or have you forgotten that we have been going solo for almost a month now? There is no more group and no more Kellyoncé from now on!