Either Me or Him

Chapter 29

On the first day, after being "kidnapped" by Beyoncé, Kelly woke up first and without Bey seeing her, she got ready, had something to eat and went to the beach to reflect a little on everything that was going on.

There were so many things going on at once! First Beyoncé declared her love for Kelly, then an attempt to date her followed by an abrupt break-up, Ciara asking her to date her, Beyoncé going crazy with jealousy in public, Carter's divorce and now her being practically kidnapped by Bey so that she can accept her back into her life. Is it or isn't a lot happening all at once?
That's why she needed some time to herself. Kelendria was feeling confused by it all and this news of the divorce filing hit her in a way she hadn't expected. It was as if her hopes of living out a romance with Beyoncé had taken hold of her again, but at the same time she wondered if this was just another thoughtless move on the blonde's part. After all, it wouldn't be the first time, would it?
But she still had to think about it and try to come to a conclusion or just allow herself to live in the moment.

While Kelly was absent-mindedly thinking and looking at the sea, someone approached her and asked if he could join her. She could tell by the husky voice who it was.
"- Good morning, Beyoncé." She thought about giving a slightly rude answer, but she couldn't be like that, especially not to the woman she loved. "- Yes, you can."   She said, trying to be as friendly as possible.

"- Good morning, Kells. Thank you!" She said as she sat down next to the brunette.  "- I'm sorry to come after you. I was worried when I woke up and went to your room to see if you'd slept well, but you weren't there or anywhere else in the house. So I came straight here."

This intrigued Kelly. Bey had looked all over the house for her and she wasn't there. How had she ended up in the exact place she was? That was the question on the brunette's mind.
"How did you know I was here? I could have run away. Did anyone tell you I came here?"  Before Beyoncé could answer her unbridled questioning, she interrupted her and decided to make a joke.
"- Oh, I know! You put a chip in me to track me?! Face it!"  Beyoncé couldn't help but laugh at what she'd just heard.

"- I know I'm crazy in love with you, but not to the point of putting a chip in you to track you. That would be invasive, but if you want, I'll do it now. I've already kidnapped you!"   She laughed and, consequently, a wave of emotions came over Kelendria when she heard those words followed by a sweet smile.  "But if you want to know how I found out, I'll tell you.
When you want to isolate yourself to think, you like to do three things. One of them is admiring the sea. So it was easy to know where you might be."

Kelly ducked her head and smiled at the thought of how well Bey knows her.

"- I think you're right, you didn't track me down, you just know me well enough." She smiled.
Beyoncé almost melted with the smile she had just received and Kelly realized it, but acted as if she hadn't noticed.

"- I see every detail of you. I see you with my heart, Kelly. I can say so much about you without fear of making a mistake, you know?"  Bey said as she carefully turned Kelly's face towards her with one of her hands so that she could look into her eyes.   "- Kelendria, you're very special to me. Nothing about you goes unnoticed by me."

"- Then why did my feelings pass me by, Beyoncé? Why didn't you see how much I suffered when you chose him over me? Why didn't you notice how much I wanted you from the start?" Kelly opened her heart and a tear fell from her eye.

Each of those words hit Giselle's heart and she could feel the pain behind them.

"- Kelly, I saw that you had feelings for me, but I was really afraid I was confusing things and by the time I knew for sure what you felt, it was too late. I was dating Jay and he had just asked me to marry him, so the weight of that and all the other things made me ignore what I wanted in order to do what was right.
But there wasn't a day that went by that I didn't think of you, that I didn't want to hold you, kiss you, see your smile, hear your voice or just have you by my side, but that didn't happen. On the contrary, I only pushed you away from me.
But forgive me for being a coward! Now I'm here to fight for us."  At that moment, tears welled up in both of their eyes. "- I love you very much, Kelendria! And what about you? Do you still love me?"