Just Leave Me Be (On hiatus)

PROLOGUE

*Under Revision

As the wind gently caressed her golden locks, the comfort and peace she has been denying was starting to sink fully in to her turmoil conquered mind. For a moment she felt nice and so she breathes in.

It was hardly a thought that passes her mind but the luxury of peace that she was bathing in now was quite ironic. It might probably a fleeting experience for now but she was glad, since it was something that had completely slipped off her begging grasp when she was living her life as Rhianne.

Hah... it's a really nice feeling. She once again spoke of the joy that was warming in her chest.

Yulia laid more comfortably in the rocking chair she was sitting on as she stared at the bright blue sky from the transparent glasses of her garden dome.

'How long has it been since I've possessed this body?' a sudden thought popped into her mind.

It was not a nice memory in fact, rather it was a thought that had brought out again the pain she had unknowingly buried deeply in the bottom of her heart. The subliminal scent of sadness lingers in the area that surrounds her.

She stared blankly in the open space as she reminisce her tragic hope for love and belonging.

'Pakkk!!! She was not anticipating it at all but her right cheek stinging from pain felt so real that she couldn't deny the fact that her mother had slapped her.

Did she do anything that might have upset them? She ponders as she looked at her parents with utter confusion and sadness, yet the chance that she still wholeheartedly gave them was only returned with a piercing cold glare mimicking the sharpness of their hatred for her.

It was making her heart bleed more, flowing red with torment and dismay.

As she try to prevent herself from completely breaking down, she steeled herself to look at her parents even if it meant looking at them not with boldness but with faltering eyes watery from holding her own tears brought by the pain of being slapped and pain from treating her this way despite also being their child.

"How can you be so selfish? Your sister... Your sister almost died because of you!!!"

"W-what? I-I never?- No... I'm really sorry... I've never intended for that to happen..."

"Liar, you ungrateful brat!!!"

Ridding herself from the painful memories, she shook her head as she turned the page of the book she was reading.

Truthfully, she hoped she never had to remember all the memories she had in her past life because she was way better off without them. But that didn't became the case so, all she could do now is to not dwell in the ghost of the past or better yet... stop wasting time thinking about trivial things.

She was given another chance to live life to the fullest, and this time around she won't be living it agonizing over the lack of love showered in her direction. She doesn't want attention, sympathy, nor faked sincerity... no, rather than disliking it was more like utter repugnance, she despises any form of love other than self love.

And yes at first, she had thought of giving up her life but it will not be the case this time around, because she will only revolve around her life like the planets in the solar system to their sun. Call it selfish nor self-centered, but she will only treasure herself, her life more than anything else. She won't be greedy, even if it's love... because love will only bring despair.

That's what she thought.

So, why is it?

Why is it that...

"Argh, I only want to live.

Just leave me be!!!"

A/n: I might be changing the MCs names especially with the FL (I'll also will stick to her new name at all times to prevent confusion) and probably make some little tweaks in the plot as I try to continue the story again. Sorry for the inconvenience.

MC name: Yulia (new)
                    Rhianne
(Formerly: Luxianna and Deigh)