Just Leave Me Be (On hiatus)

IX

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A day has passed after the event. Deigh was at the garden sipping her tea while reading her notes.

She was fortunate to write her notes in her original script, for if she didn't do so she would have been busted, much more, thought of as insane.

She reread her script as planned and stayed in the garden relaxing, but her rest was interrupted by the raging Duke storming her way.

She knew that he would confront her but she didn't expect him to come so soon.

'Guess he also have his ears around me, not that I'm believing it, he most probably has been told by his knights who have heard of my rumour. Well, it's not like I'm going out of my way any time soon, so let the rumours be. I planned to stay here in the house and just relax.'

"Luxiana!!! What the hell did you do again this time? I thought you have change but..." he's still of great distance from her yet his voice was so loud that she instantly covered her ears and turned her back on him.

"What?!!! This lady..."  Deigh rolled her eyes and closed her note. She turn to look at her father who was now behind her.

"Can you tell me what this is all about?" The Duke drop the newspaper he has been carrying in her table.

'Newspaper?' Deigh thought.

Was it such a big of a deal that they have to publish it? Deigh once again rolled her eyes. 'So childish.'

She read the content for a moment and saw how they manipulate the news.

"It's true Father, I indeed told them off." She told the Duke and turn to her.

"What?! Why do you always create problems for me?"

"Nothing." She didn't make an effort to answer.

"Won't you really defend yourself?"

"..." Deigh stayed silent.

"You are grounded. You may never set foot to the outside for a month." And with that the Duke set off but stopped his track when Deigh opened her mouth and spoke in a decisive tone.

"No matter what I say, you won't believe me anyway. Just like you always do..." Deigh muttered as she sipped on her now cold tea.

"You only see me as a bother, an extra baggage. You're not concerned of my being yet you always appear to scold me. How funny...the victim's the one being punished." She continued with a monotonous voice as if what she's saying is only a natural occurrence, an obvious matter.

The Duke surprised by her response became silent, his anger slipping away and was changed to confusion.

"Father, do you remember how much I tremble in front of you in the past, I was like a scared cat if I recall it correctly. Did you even wonder what's the reason I acted like that? Did you even tried to know the reason? No, right? It is so funny that you always manage to learn my supposed to be faults yet didn't even tried to see my concerns."

The Duke faces her.

"Luxiana..."  he could only utter her name.

Tears pooled down her face. She didn't believed it at first, she thought that Luxiana was still within her body or that she just felt pity towards her. She's uncertain, yet, the more she let out her pain, the harder she cried.

"You didn't know anything about me, yet you already charged me as the sinner when in fact I was always the victim. You didn't know... You didn't know what happened to me in the past so don't dare accuse me as if that was the most natural thing to do... That content on the newspaper, those were all lies, yet it's the truth that I told them off for the first time. I just... I just don't want to feel the pain anymore, I'm tired and sick of it. Was it wrong to just pay them back at least just for once?" She sniffed and wipe her tears. She couldn't take it anymore and just rushed past her father and went to her room leaving her note behind.

Deigh rushed to her bed and cried out all the pain inside her.

She can't help but reminisce her past, she was just like Luxiana, she was neglected by her family. With no one to cling on, to trust, and to depend on they lived the world alone and lonely.

'Pakkk!!! , The sound of her cheek being slapped gave out a very loud sound.

The movement was unexpected that she fell on the ground.

"How can you be so selfish? Your sister... Your sister almost died because of you!!!"

"I'm sorry... I'm really sorry... I've never intended for that to happen..."

"Liar, you ungrateful brat!!!" '

It was always like that her parents would always hit her no matter if it is her fault or not if it involves her younger sister, she would always be hit.

She was sad, and wanted to curse the world yet she didn't. The only thing she wants was for her life to end.

'What sense is living if I'm not allowed to be happy?' She would always think.

Her thoughts were of grounded experience though, at school she would always be alone and bullied, at home she would be abused. The only thing that is making her happy was the novels she had read, it helped her escape from the cruel reality.

She would always wonder if she has done an unforgivable act that she had to experience that kind of life, yet she clings on.

But at that time her little of a hope was extinguished rather perfectly... she gave up on life.

It was because of her sister who didn't listen to her , she told her that it was dangerous to go outside, that night their parent left the house so she was task to oversee her sister, she did not even sleep a wink just in case her sister needs her. But when Lydia, her sister told her to go out of the room because she'll be going to sleep she smiled and told her to sleep well. Yet the next day she woke up her father kicked her in the stomach.

That day she was beaten so hard, but she was tired of telling her side that she only asked for the reason. She learned that her sister went out in the middle of the night and is almost run by a car. Lydia accused her of throwing her out in the night because she is annoyed at her which is not true.

She was beaten for hours that when her father got tired that's when it all stopped.  She thought that if only she could get away from them even if that means she'll stay and die in the streets she would than to give them the pleasure to torment her again. She planned to escape at night yet was caught escapinh, so she had to run so hard until a car she didn't notice of hit her.

She was dying yet she can only feel the pain they brought to her, that night she succumbed to the darkness who devoured her light.

Yet her succumbing to that darkness only brought her to a new life.