Bad Habits (Shameless)

Will you be mine forever? (PT 1)

                    CHAPTER 12

Samara gaped at Carl's affirmation, flickering her eyes and swallowing nothing
"Didn't you ask him to, did you?" - she asked, hoping to know a fair answer from the boy

"I didn't." - he stated

"What, didn't you say to want quitting this shitty useless business, so why are you keeping doing it" - the girl almost shrieked, as Carl plugged her mouth with his hand

"I tried to talk to Lamar on my way coming here, I gave him the keys and then he said G-dogg wants to meet us after school at Downtown Hill, for more information and equipment, he said that was going to be a big mission, and I tried to told him I wanted to quit, but then he striked his gun to my head, almost making me unconscious for how hard he hit, and then he said something like I can't escape no more from this fucking business, I'm like trapped here and there's no way to escape it. "- he clarified, backing away his hand from her mouth as she looked at him speechless and a little bit freaked out too
" We just have to find a way to come out of this shit before the authorities'll find out and bang me back to juvie, and honestly , I mind a bit" - he added , rubbing his hands to his face, trying to find out a plan so that they could've come out of that shit, if even that was not that quick and easy, they needed concentration and time to think, but there was not that big of a time to think about, they were trapped, probably for a big part of their life in that shitty business who wants just to see some money on the men's hands, high respect between everyone, just for drugs of course, and beat the shit out of anyone who would've try to sabotage them or steal their benefits, an incessant oblivion between life and death, a fucked up word which wanted to fucked more kids up every day, without giving them even a way to escape it.
That's what they were in

"I-I just don't know what to say! He just wants to mess our lives up more than they already are!" - Samara freaked out, walking across all the room, fiddling with her hands

"Actually, not to uphold him, but we played along with him too" - Carl interrupted

"We played along with him? Are you trying to shitting me Gallagher? This was all you! You and that juvie shit of yours, you and your fucking problem with money, you and your fucking desire to actually have someone by your side, even doing unfair shit, but you dragged me into this shit too, and now I can't risk no more, I'm sorry Carl, but you can forget my help, by now, you're alone with this shit. "-the girl declared, settling down her backpack, when Carl stood up from the bed, moving towards the girl chuckling inwardly and sniffling, moving his tongue to the side, keeping his mouth open, as the girl glanced to him, looking over to his face in confusion

"I dragged you here in this? I DRAGGED YOU HERE IN THIS SHIT? I knew your giant need to have money of your own, maybe to contribute to paying the rent with Kevin and Veronica, so I offered you that shit, yes it might've not be the best job of the world, but it still had given you money for all your various shits, and don't say it ain't true, when we both know it is, plus I didn't certainly forced you to join this business with me "- Carl rebutted, moving closer to the girl and making her back away towards the bathroom door

" You fucking blackmail me saying you would've told I helped you deal with some shit while you were still in juvie to the Brookes, even when I was in a relationship with one of the rival group, blackmail me to ruin my relationship, blackmail me to being murdered.
What was I supposed to do? I've been all my life in shitty places where I couldn't even find a way to get better, juvie didn't work in me, do I look like a better person to you? Of course not.
And you used that against myself, it was easy to you saying that things when you know in what kind of situation I was, what kind of problem I was going through, that mess on my head who don't want to seem to go away, it was easy for you, so, yeah Gallagher, you did force me to. "- she clenched her jaw, shouting at the boy and pointing her finger to his face, as he was looking at her trying to keep his gaze up