Life after (Newt x Reader)

Chpt 3 pg 2

TW: mentions of SH and suicidal thoughts
Y/n's POV

I woke up a little later wrapped in Newt's arms who was sitting up talking to Gally. Hickeys on display. I sat up a bit before Newt pulled me back onto him. "Darling, there's something we need to speak to you about." Newt sighed. "Mhm" I mumbled. "Uh- Teresa she's slipped into her old habit. And has gotten very depressed again lately." Gally sighed. "What old habit?" I asked dreading one answer. "The uh- the cutting." Gally said. I just sighed and bowed my head. I know what it's like. I've been there. So many times. "Can you talk to her? You'd understand more than any of us." Gally asked. "Of course." I said standing up. I had my bra and panties on so it was okay. Except for all the hickeys. Gally shook his head as I pulled shorts and a T-shirt on. The hickies on my thighs and neck still very visible. Not to mention I was staggering. Gally came over and knelt down. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he stood up. I was on his back. He dropped me off at his door and I walked in. Right when Teresa was cutting. "No. Fuck this Teresa give me the knife." I told her snatching it from her. Accidentally cutting my hand in the process. "Tell me what's going on. I can help." I pleaded. "He's getting sick of me and I'm sick of me and it's all falling down again. I'm loosing myself again and I feel like I'm loosing everyone around me- I don't know what to do." She said quickly. Her breathing quickening. "Hey hey, none of us are letting you go. Gally is not sick of you. We love you. I know how hard it is I've been here." I told her showing her my scar covered arms. She sobbed for hours hugging me and apologising. "Please- please don't leave me." She begged. "I won't don't you worry there's no way I'm going anywhere." I told her. "Get it all out babe it'll feel better." I cooed. "I- I feel so ugly and disgusting all the time- I feel like all of you want me gone. I would do it only for the kids. I love your brother so so much and I- I just can't loose him. Or you. All I can think of is letting go and running into the maze just before the doors close so you guys don't need to deal with me." She sobbed. "Heeey hey, none of us want you gone- Teresa I love you. And so does Gally. He loves you so so much. Listen. I'm here for you. All day everyday. I'm NEVER letting you go and neither is anyone else. Especially not Gally. And you are so gorgeous and perfect in every single way possible. God T if it wasn't for you I would've been gone ages ago. I LOVE you Teresa." I told her. "I love you too." She smiled. She started giggling at me. "I'm so sorry Y/n I'm very sorry for all this but- god you look so- different like this you're like a mom!" She giggled. "What are you talking about? I'm everyone's mom except Gall and Newt's" I giggled back. Gally came in. "Teresa. I LOVE YOU so much and I refuse to let you do this alone. I love you." Gally told her. She stood up. "I love you most. I'm so sorry pretty boy." She smiled sadly as he hugged her. I left a bit later. Giving Newt had to come get me cause I was still staggering around. He put me on his shoulders. "How is she momma Y/n?" Newt asked. "She's ok, I made her giggle." I smiled. "See you're so amazing." Newt smiled proudly bringing me to get dinner. The twins were sitting with Fry. "Hooly look at all those!" Zart laughed pointing to my neck and thighs. "Shush." I laughed back as Newt sat down and put me on his lap. We had dinner and decided to go swimming. Which maybe wasn't smart as I could only walk a little bit proper now. I swam around fine. Until the pets joined. "Oi! Ghost!" Newt laughed as ghost put his paws on Newt's shoulders ultimately pushing him under the water. I laughed loudly and then was grabbed under the water by Newt. We resurfaced and he laughed at me before kissing me and then deciding to further it by swiping his tongue across my bottom lip and pulling my hair lightly causing me to gasp before he slipped his tongue in my mouth starting an entire make out session. "Oi! That's gross!" Zart teased so at that Newt wrapped his hand around my throat and kissed me again. "Holy shit free porn" Zart chuckled before leaving. We got out of the water a while later and walked into Minho. "Nah no more for today." I hissed as I tried to avoid him. "I'm sorry." Minho mumbled. "He's sorry? HES FUCKING SORRY NOW?!" I yelled. He just stood there. "YOU DEFENDED HER AFTER SHE TRIED TO KILL MY CHILD MINHO!" I roared before Newt dragged me away. "YOU ARE A PRICK AND I HOPE YOU LEARN THAT THE FUCKING HARD WAY!" I screamed before letting Newt bring me back to our hut. "Why's he always do this to you? Every time you're having a good time he destroys it." Newt growled angrily. I just lay on the floor. "You are so weird." Newt chuckled before joining me. Ghost came in with Hazel on his back as Storm followed with Jasper. She had him caught by the shirt and was carrying him that way. She put him down and licked his face before jumping up on the bed and sprawling out across it. The kids came to Newt and I. Jasper sat on my tummy and Hazel sat on Newt and we just sat there for a while talking before putting the kids into bed.