Nate Jacobs - Falling down

Chapter Ten - What Are We?

It's been two days since Nate and I had sex. Things have been going well for us. I taught him how to bake cookies since he didn't know how..i did all of the work btw. We also binge watched shameless for a little bit! That was what we did all weekend, but i wondered if everything would be the same once we went back to school on Monday, are we going to be in a public relationship?

Nate runs his fingers through my hair as i lay on his chest staring at the ceiling. He lifts his head from the pillow to kiss my temple, and lays back down.

"What are you thinking about, Sarah?"

"Just us."

"What about 'us'?" He asks confused.

"Well, it's been a great weekend, but nobody knows that we're a thing."

"Are we even a thing yet?"

"Nate..didn't you say you had feelings for me already?" I say as i lift my head off of his chest to face him.

"Yes, i did. But you never confirmed your feelings for me." I roll my eyes in response as i lay my head back down on his chest.

"So" He continues

"Do you have feelings for me?"

"What do you think?"

"I think you should answer me."

I scoff and remove my head off of his chest again to face him.

"Yes, Nate. I like you."

"You just like me?!" He says sarcastically.

"No, actually i hate you." He laughs as his presses his lips to mine. I kiss him back softly.
He pulls away from the kiss and gives me a serious look.

"What?"

"Are you going to tell Maddy?"

"I don't know, i feel like i have to tell her. She's my best friend." I really don't know how i'll tell her, but i couldn't keep this from her. I love her too much to not tell her.

"Yeah, i know."

"I just hope she doesn't hate me.."

"She could never hate you, when her and i were together.." He pauses

"Keep going."

"When we were together she'd always talk about you. She really looks up to you, Sarah."

"I know."

"What if she doesn't want us together? Or she gets mad? What would you do?"

"I don't know Nate." I say with a hint of annoyance which i think he caught.

"Okay.." He sighs as he rests his head back on the pillow, but i get off of him and sit on the edge of the bed.

"What are you doing? Come back here." he puts his arms out signalling me to come cuddle with him, but i couldn't because i had to ask him something first. Something i couldn't ever get my mind off of.

"Nate, why did you treat Maddy the way you did?" He scowls in annoyance as he sits up at rests his head on the headboard of his bed.

"Way to ruin the moment, Sarah."

"Answer me."

"She got on my nerves i guess." He shrugs

"Well i can't help but think that you're going to do something like that to me if i ever piss me off."

"Then just don't piss me off?"

"Not everything goes your way all the time Nate."

"I never said it did."

"Why are you acting so childish? I'm trying to have a serious conversation and you're dismissing me and not even answering."

"Maybe because i don't want to have this conversation." He sighs as he puts his head in his hands.

"Well, i do. And while we're on the topic, are you gay or something?" He looks up at me with dead serious eyes as i say that.

"What the fuck are you talking about?"

"Maddy said you had a bunch of dicks on your phone."

"Not everything Maddy says is true." He rolls his eyes.

"Maddy doesn't lie to me."

"I was catfishing.."

"What?"

"Those dicks were for catfishing."

"Why did you do that?"

"I don't know, it's addicting i guess.."

"Well, could you not do that?"

"Okay..sorry. I just don't want you to think i'm weird or anything. You know Sarah, i do care about what you think."

He comes behind me on the bed and wraps his arms around me, hugging me from behind.

"I'll change for you. I'll really try to, i can't make any promises, except for i promise i'll try." He whispers in my ear.

"Okay." I sigh as i rest my head against his shoulder.

"I know i've done some things that..that aren't normal, and you've probably heard a lot of shit from Maddy. But, i'm not proud of it either. I hate myself of a lot of the things i've done..nobody understands me. Except for you, you give me a chance to redeem myself. You give me a reason to change." He says as he turns my head to face his.

"Nate, you don't have to change yourself for me."

"I want to be the man you deserve."

That makes me smile, and blush, a lot.

"I think i'm falling in love with you." I admit as a huge smirk appears on his face.

"I think i already have." He whispers as he pulls me in for a deep kiss.

I've never felt anything like this before when i kiss him. I feel loved, powerful and relaxed all at the same time. It's refreshing. His love gives me life.

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Hey guys! Thank you sososo much for reading. I know this chapter was short and it's been a few days since i've updated, i'm so sorry, but i promise it gets so much better! Also, thank you guys SO much for over 1k reads! I can't believe i've made it this far in only three weeks. Can't wait for the future updates! See you all then <3