Nate Jacobs - Falling down

Chapter Fourteen - Hold me, but don't look.

Nate and i have been doing much better lately. He's been learning how to cope with his anger issues, and he's been opening up about a lot of things that he's never told anyone, such as the tapes, or his relationship with Maddy. This was good for us, we've been much happier. I'm just glad that Nate is happy. But, was i?

Sarah's Backstory:

Sarah was alone.

She had no siblings, which meant no one to relate to since nobody went through the same thing that she did. And she hated it. She was alone.

Ever since Sarahs father passed away from lung cancer, she's been depressed. Every father's day, she'd spend drowning in her own tears. On his birthday, she's visit his grave drinking his favourite tea, it was basic, but it was green tea. She wished her Mother was the one who'd died instead.

Sarah's Mother had slept with multiple guys including Cal Jacobs while her Father was sick and dying in the hospital. Even now, after he died, she's still a fucking drunk. I don't know her father even stayed with Sarah's Mother.

Sarah secretly worked at the strip club not even 10 minutes away from Nate's house. Nate would kill her if he knew about this, but this wasn't the only job that Sarah had. In the summer, Sarah worked every single day at three different jobs. The grocery story, Lifeguarding and, again, the strip club. She wouldn't have all of these jobs for no reason, but she really did need them since she wanted to move very far from here and go to college as soon as she graduated. Her Mother would never pay for her, which she already knew, that's part of the reason she even had these jobs in the first place. Even if her Mom wasn't such a bitch and didn't hate her daughter, they were broke anyways. She wouldn't have any money to give to Sarah regardless.

Because she had no one to relate to, and nobody to talk to, Sarah was really independent. She doesn't share her problems with anyone, she just keeps it all in. One day, she knows she's going to fall apart. It's too much for a kid to handle. She was alone.

END OF BACKSTORY

Sarah POV

I was driving home from work when i got a call from Maddy, which i declined since i was so ducking exhausted from school, and work right after school, and then i had a shit load of homework and Nate to deal with. Life was so fucking tiring.

When i walked in the door Nate came downstairs and pulled me in for a hug as he kissed my forehead, then my lips.

"I missed you. How was the night out with the girls?"

Since Nate doesn't know i work at a strip club, i tell him i'm hanging out with Maddy or one of my friends. He doesn't need more shit on his mind, plus, i hate talking about my problems. It makes things super fucking awkward.

"It was great! We watched The Vampire Diaries for like, 3 hours."

"Good because i'm never watching that show with you, that's only with them." I laugh back at his comment.

I head for a shower while Nate orders the pizza. I feel like we're a married couple or some shit, and i love it. I really did love living with Nate. It was so much easier and made me much happier than living with my son of a bitch of a mother.

I change into grey sweats and a black tube top, and i put a white and grey cardigan over since i was cold and wet from that shower. I head down to the living room to rest, which is something i haven't had in forever.

Nate joins me and we cuddle.

"You feeling okay? You seem exhausted." He mumbles as he kisses me cheek.

"I am, the school and the homework, the st-" Fuck it almost slipped out because i'm so tired. "The girls are so tiring to be around sometimes too, i don't know how they have so much energy after school."

"Yeah, i get it. I bet it's because they don't do homework though." He says causing us to laugh. He really was right though, i swear they're not getting good jobs once they graduate.

"Yeah that's true though. How would they even get jobs? They're literally failing all of their classes right now."

"Sarah, i don't want that happening to you, okay? I want you to have a good future, you don't want to struggle when you're older just because you didn't want to do some homework." He says sternly staring right into my eyes.

"Wow, okay Dad." But then i just realized what i'd said. Dad.

"Oh-"

Silence filled the room.

"I'm sorry.." Why was he sorry? It wasn't his fault.

"You didn't do anything, Nate."

"I know, but it must be hard for you to talk about."

"Yeah.."

I hated talking about my problems, like i said many times before. It's just a waste of time because really the person you're crying to doesn't give a shit. All of that crying won't do anything, and the person you tell can't help you in any way, so why the fuck would i waste my time? It's not like Nate could bring my Dad back.

"I know you don't like taking about personal things, but you know i do care, right?"

"Y-yeah." I start laughing because i feel like i'm about to cry, but i don't want to cry in front of anyone. I hate it.

"Sarah-" He says softly as a tear rolls down my face, but im still laughing.

"Wh-What, it's nothing, i'm fine!" I laugh as i wipe the tears away, but when i look at him all i see is pity.

"Why the fuck are you looking at me like that."

"Nate?"

He doesn't answer, he just pulls me in for a hug.

"Nate stop! I'm fine." I laugh

"No, no you're not. And you don't have to hid it." He kisses my forehead as he rubs my back while we hug.

I feel my eyes starting to burn, oh fuck i'm crying. Fuck fuck fuck i hate crying in front of people.

"It's okay, Sarah. Everything is going to be okay i promise." He whispers as he kisses the top of my head.

That. That right there is what made me ball my eyes out. When someone shows me pity it makes me weak. I couldn't hide it anymore.

I cry in his arms as he comforts me with kisses and hugs, and he says supportive things like "it will be okay" or "i'm here for you". He's my weakness.

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Thank you all for reading!

I know how these chapters have been about Sarah and Nate, but i promise more characters and drama will be involved. It won't stay cupcakes and rainbows forever <3