𝐓𝐰𝐨 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 who have been separated for some time reunite however, mindsets have changed, feelings have changed and all-around people have changed as a whole. What happens when the two realize it for themselves.
𝐂𝐨𝐩𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭...
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I was on my way to the flower shop, I haven't been in so long. I could remember vividly how much I got a kick out of going and picking up lilies and roses just to water them when I got home. The notion of taking care of something or being in control of the outcome of that something is always so interesting but when you lose that control, that feeling of certainty makes you sometimes feel unstable within yourself as crazy as it is.
I made my way and picked up a beautiful bouquet of dark red roses that sat by the flower shop window that was just calling my name from afar. I paid for them and made my way out of the shop as the fresh April New York breeze hit my face, I closened my face towards the flowers that were in front of me as the gorgeous smell hit my nose with all its beauty.
The 10-minute drive was relaxing, calm and very reflective. I cherished it, life can be so loud and cray with so many distractions coming our way it always feels incredible to have a few quiet minutes to reflect or even analyze the life were living currently and all the events accruing in our lives.
I finally found myself that I never in a million years thought I would ever find myself, my dear parents resting place. There sat their tom stone that was side by side to each other with their beautiful faces on it, gosh do I miss these two. I need them right now, I need them to tell me everything is going to be ok and that I'm in the place I need to be in my life right now. I need daddy to kiss my forehead and tell me how proud he is of everything I've accomplished. Right now I need momma to tell me that God has a plan for me and let life just work itself out.
I found myself crying like a baby all over again, I had agonizing pain in my chest as I could feel my throat closing up almost. Tears fell from my cheek hitting my black leggings, I watched the teardrops make small splashes on my leg, I slowly felt my nose get runny from the intensity of me crying. I honestly needed this, I have been holding so many tears and it took a bigger toll on me than I expected
I miss them with my whole being, I'll never get to have the father-daughter dance that I always dreamt of for my mom to help me pick out my wedding dress. Damn does it hurt, fuck that it kills to have your parents stripped from you with no damn explanation not only that but to know that it was caused by someone so careless and selfish.
I was sitting down on the green grass as the bouquet of flowers at in between their tombstones, the sky was grey I didn't even care if it rained on me. Nothing could take away the never-ending pain I felt every time I closed my eyes, picturing my life before everything happened. I know I'm not broken, I'm just a young woman going through an unexplainable experience that even doctors can't help me with all I can do is pray and heal on my own time.
I know there will be a bright and shining light at the end of this tunnel for both Armon and me but it will take time and I'm willing to take all the time life can offer me.
