From The Inside

Apology to Myself

I apologize to myself...

For the things I never say out loud

For the feelings I never convey

and for my voice that never makes a sound.

I apologize to myself...

For everyday I kill myself with silence

For the way I set my world of balance

and for the cuts in my heart that always need stitches.

"I hate this, I don't like you, It is non of your business!!"

These are some of the words I wish I could say.

I apologize to myself

for every time I said "I am okay" and it was a lie

for every moment I gave up and did not fly

I apologize to the woman I wish to be

For the chances I never took

For the opportunities I overlooked

and for how I never took a closer look

at how my poor heart bled, every time

I stood in silence and shed a tear.