HIGH ON LOVE// ASHTRAY x OC

mother nature

Ashtray and I spent the entire week together. We did everything from going to a fair to going geocaching (which took some time for me to convince him to go to). Between that, he made sure we ate, well mostly me and he would sneakily try to watch to make sure I ate.

I appreciated his concern. Not taking our usual banter into account, he would find ways to show his appreciation for me. It was the little comments that made me feel butterflies.

"Where yo ass goin lookin like that?"
"Your hair is so fuckin pretty princess,"
"How you look good while eating a burger shawty?"
"I'm glad my best friend is fine, can't be friends wit ugly bitches..."

Maddy would tease me, saying how I never liked hanging out with anybody for more than a couple hours. I would flip her off and roll my eyes at her jokes.

The week had gone by in such a blur, I almost forgot what day it was until my good friend from down under decided to visit.

Yep, my fucking period. Now, I never had a problem with her a couple of years ago and I don't know if it's because I'm growing or whatever but god damn, this bitch was starting to hurt.

I laid in bed, unable to move because the slightest action made my lower stomach feel as if it were being torn apart. Oh, what it takes to be a woman.

One thing I hated about this world we live in, is that society doesn't recognize that period pain is a real fucking thing. They say we're being dramatic just because we've been able to hide our pain with our strength.

Unfortunately, I was not one of those girls which is why I was laying in a pool of my tears as Criminal Minds was playing from my laptop. I was pathetic.

This was day two of my period. I had honestly lost all contact with the outside world, only getting up to do my business in the restroom, shower and eat. But even those times were sparingly.

Along with feeling like I was getting my stomach carved out, I also felt like I had been hit in the head way too many times. Some may say that I shouldn't feel this way and they're right. I started taking pills for the pain last year but had run out and forgot to refill them.

Just my fucking luck.

I quite literally had to raw dog this cycle for the next, roughly 4 days. Sadly, it usually never got better. Ashtray had texted me yesterday morning, asking to get food but I hadn't woken up until the afternoon.

From then on, my body was on a constant low energy mode. I didn't have the will to get up and do anything as my depressive episodes were also in effect.

Yeah, I needed to visit my doctor soon.

I was curled up on my side, holding a tissue in my hand as my tears fell freely. It's not like I was sad or anything. It was just that the pain was so consistent and overwhelming that I felt as if nothing I did would help and it was exhausting.

I swear I heard the footsteps before my door was thrown open.

"Aight, I ain't the clingy type," Ash said, pacing back and forth. "But how you gon ignore my shit for damn near two days? I thought when we last saw each other, we were coolin and-"

Ash took in my obvious bad state. I had on a big ass hoodie, sweatpants and my fuzzy socks.

"Mia?" He asked tenderly, rushing to my side to push the hoodie slightly off of my face. "What's wrong princess?"

"Nothing," I muttered, amused by his concern as tears were shed from my eyes. "Just uhm...I'm on my monthly and it gets really fucking painful." Ash nodded, understanding or maybe he didn't and just didn't want to ask any questions.