I'm in love with a criminal-Bucky barns x y/n

Chapter 9

2:47 am-1 week later,Friday

Y/ns POV:
I had been going out every day since last week just to meet random dealers as buy drugs,I've gotten way worse at hiding it when I came home to the point I just wouldn't care anymore. I just liked to forget how much he ment to me and how he left,the drugs helped with that.

I was walking around in buckys hoodie and some joggers, mascara smeared across my face. I pulled on my shoes and walked to the door. "Y/n where are you going?" Steve asked
I stopped "just to the shop"
"Want a lift?" He offered
"No im good thanks" I smiled
"Are you sure,infact I think I need to go to the shop anyway,let's go together" he grabbed his keys and walked towards me
"Steve please"I begged knowing he could sense my lie
He sighed "y/n why are you doing this to yourself?"
"I just miss him"I said holding back tears
He pulled me into a hug "I know,we really are trying to find him and stark is sorry"
"Stark is sorry? Bet" I laughed
"Just stop doing the drugs y/n,it's not good for you and I really can't help you if your always high" he explained
"Ok" I said
"Promise me,no more drugs" he ordered
"I promise" I said regretting it instantly

I went back to my room and sat on my bed staring at my hands, I couldn't stop thinking about him. I wanted Bucky back and it hurt knowing that I can't find him. I sat there tears rolling down my face. "For fuck sakes" I said to myself standing up and walking out my room, I snuck past Steve feeling guilty that I was about to break the only promise I have ever made him. I walked out the door and made my way to the city,took hours.

eventually I made it to a sketchy sandwich shop and walked inside greeted by a skinny man behind the counter. "What you wanting today y/n?" He asked with a smile
"Just give me some strong shit" I ordered handing him some money
"Ok well I'll give you this, 3 in a bag but only take one,that shit could kill you" he smiled passing me a ham sandwich.
"Thanks" I said walking out the shop.

On my way home I opened the sandwich to see a small plastic bag inside with 3 small pills, I poured them out into my hand and place all 3 onto my tongue before swallowing them.

I arrived back feeling sick and faint,I opened the door falling into the house. I stood myself up and held onto the wall,i walked past the living room on the way to my bedroom but was stopped by Tony. "Hey y/n,umm I was talking to Steve and he said you didn't believe that I was sorry so I just wanted to let you know that I really am sorry,it was totally out of line."
I looked at him feeling like I was going to pass out "yeah that's cool,I'm actually really tired-"
Wanda walked in "y/n you don't look well come sit down" she said taking me to the living room where everyone sat.

Fuck.. Steve stared at me "y/n are you high!" He shouted
I didn't answer,instead I just smiled
"What? Y/n are you?" Wanda asked
No answer
Tony looked at me confused "y/n answer them!"
"I took some shit that's gonna knock me out" I laughed before falling to the ground
"What did you take!?" Tony asked running to me
"You promised this wouldn't happen y/n" Steve said sadly while tony checked my temperature.
"We need a doctor someone get her a doctor!" Tony shouted as I started to throw up chocking on my own puke. Nat grabbed a bin and passed it to Tony who sat me up "y/n you need to be sick" she said holding my head over the bin "y/n you need to get that shit out of your system" he begged.
"Oh for fuck sakes tony,hold her head up" she ordered sticking her fingers down my throat making me throw up into the bin.
"Get her to the hospital room!" Tony shouted
I felt my life fading from my hands as I closed my eyes