I'm in love with a criminal-Bucky barns x y/n

Chapter 6(lemon🍋)

4:37am-Monday

Y/ns POV:
I woke up with a headache,shaking violently. I sat up in my bed and held my head "what the fuck did I drink?" I asked myself. I remembered how nice it felt to be drunk, I forgot my horrible past existed for a minute. Like nothing mattered, I missed that feeling. I stood up feeling a bit dizzy and walked out my room. After a nightmare I find it hard to sleep so usually I just wonder around till people start to wake up. I walked to the kitchen and opened a cupboard taking out a loaf of bread, I opened it and took a slice before putting it back. I just sat there and ate a slice of bread. A woman walked in,she had long hair and a nice smile. "Why are you eating a slice of bread?" She asked in a sokovian accent
"Who the fuck are you?" I asked eating my bread
"I'm Wanda,I just arrived here a few hours ago" she explained
"I recognise you" I said standing up
"I don't think you do" she said confused
"Where are you from?" I asked
"Sokovia" she said bluntly
"No,where did you come from?"I walked towards her
"Oh hydra" she smiled
"What the fuck!" I shouted backing away from her
"What's wrong?"she asked worried
I grabbed a kitchen knife and pointed it towards her,Bucky ran into the room "what's going on?" He asked
"I don't know she just picked up a knife and pointed at me" Wanda panicked
"Y/n,put down the knife it's me Bucky"he said moving to me calmly
"Bucky I'm fine!" I said loudly
"Y/n put the knife down" he ordered calmly
"Bucky I swear it's just me,she's from hydra!" I panicked
"No,i don't work for hydra anymore they just experimented on me" she explained
"You could have fucking said that" I said putting the knife down
"Wait what do you mean?" bucky asked her
"They gave me powers" she smiled twirling a red orb around her fingers
"So she gets powers and I get controlled and abused,how's that fair?" I laughed
"How did you end up in hydra" Bucky asked sitting down
"Yeah, I was sold to hydra" I smiled
"I was frozen in ice since the war" Bucky remembered
"Oh I just volunteered" Wanda smiled
My face dropped in disappointment "so you just volunteered?" I asked
"Yeah" she said realising the situation.

I walked out the room followed by Bucky, I sat on the couch and looked at Bucky "what the fuck was that?" I asked
"I have no fucking clue doll" he laughed
"How can you volunteer,like they completely fucked us up" I complained
"I don't think where that fucked" he sat down next to me
"I am so hungover,it's to early for this" I complained
"It's because you drank way to much" he laughed standing up "I'll get you some water"

He walked out the room. Soon after Steve walked in "morning y/n,sorry about late night"
"What do you mean?" I asked
"I was a bit drunk I really didn't mean to offend you or anything" he said
Bucky walked in throwing me a bottle of water "what's going on?" He asked
"I'm just apologising for last night,I'm sorry Bucky by the way" he apologised
"Whatever captain" he smiled
"Wait I thought super soldiers couldn't get drunk?" I drank my water
"There not supposed to" Bucky laughed
"It was Asgardian liquor buck" he crossed his arms.
"What actually happened?" I asked confused
"I asked you to come back to my room and got a bit pissed when you said no and I'm really sorry. That was no way to treat a lady" he apologised
"Oh it's fine" I said surprised
"Good uh and I'm sorry again that we got off on the wrong foot" he smiled
I took a mouthful of water and gave him a thumbs up.

I walked back to my bedroom and got dressed for the day. I walked back out and made my way to the living room to see nobody "oh for fuck sakes" I walked to the meeting room to see a few people at around the long table. I sat down "what's going on?" I asked
More people started to walk in as Tony speaks "there's a mission, hydra want to steal some titanium from a very dangerous man"
"When we leaving?" Natasha asked
"Half an hour" tony said leaving the room

I just sat there until zoned out thinking about not wanting to go on the mission. I felt a hand on my shoulder, "y/n what's up?" Steve asked worried
"I really don't want to go on this mission" I cried
"You don't have a choice, you can't skip every hydra mission" he said sternly
"No I just don't want to do this one,it's to soon" I said wiping my tears
"Listen,I'm trying to tolerate you but you have to pull your weight" he ordered
"Steve it's just-" I was interrupted by Bucky entering the room
"What's happening?" He asked
"Y/n doesn't want to go on the mission" Steve said disappointed
"Why?" He asked Steve before looking towards me "she's crying Steve,doll it's alright I'm here with you,what's wrong?" he sat in a chair next to me
"I just don't feel ready to go on another mission against hydra" I sobbed
"It's ok,I'll talk to Tony I'm sure he will understand" he took my hand and glared at Steve  before walking out the room with me. "Come on let's go on a walk,so by the time we get back they'll all be gone" he laughed.

We walked through a little forest near the compound (12:57pm)
"If you ever feel like that again,you don't want to go on a mission. Tell me and I'll sort it out for you. I promise." He smiled
"Are you not supposed to be going on the mission?" I asked
"Well I wasn't going to leave you here alone,plus we always seem to go for a walk every day" he laughed
"Thank you" I smiled
"Anytime doll" he said
"Can I ask you a question,you don't have to answer it" I asked
"Go on" he waited
"Did you ever love anyone, you know In the 1940s?" I asked nervously
"I don't think I ever did,I mean I used to go dancing with Steve and random lady's for fun when I got back but I never really got the chance to fall in love with anyone" he explained "what about you?" Bucky asked
"This is the first time I've every really felt in control of myself" I said
"Well your ok now doll" he smiled
"Thank you" I smiled
"We should head back" he looked at me
"Yeah that's a good idea" I said

(Lemon🍋)
We walked back to the compound to find an empty house "finally,quiet" I laughed
"Lets go to your room and lay down?" He asked
"Yeah sure" I nodded, we walked to my room and laid down on the bed. I rested my head on his chest and drew circles around his stomach.
He stroked my hair while looking down at me "y/n"
"Yeah?" I asked
"Never mind" he regretted
"No it's ok,tell me" I reassured
"Do you think you could ever be in love with me?" He asked anxiously
"I think so yeah,maybe" I smiled, I wanted to ask him the same but I was to scared
"Y/n, do you want to.." he stopped
"Have sex?" I asked
"I wasn't going to ask that" he sounded surprised
"Oh,sorry" I panicked
"It's ok,we can if you wanted" he smiled
"Do you want to?" I asked. Bucky kissed me,moving down to my neck sucking on it to leave a mark. He slid his hand down my body and into my underwear,he rubbed my clit in a circular motion "oh fuck Bucky" I moaned in shock
"Y/n your so wet" he smiled sticking his fingers inside of me, I pulled down my pants and underwear wanting more. He moved down my body until I could feel his warm breath on my pussy. He took his fingers out and started to suck on me. I forced my legs open letting him put his tongue inside me, I groaned and flung my head backwards "fuck me,fuck me please" I begged. He took his shirt off and kicked off his pants,his erect dick sprung out of his pants. He wanked it and spread my legs open positioning himself before my 'entrance' he looked at me concerned "are you sure y/n" he asked
"Yes I'm sure" I smiled. He shoved his dick into me groaning while doing so, tears filled my eyes at the discomfort.
"Shit are you ok?" Bucky asked panicked
"It's ok Bucky just give me a minute" I reassured. He nodded still concerned "ok I'm fine now" I said after adjusting to his length.
"Are you sure?" He asked
"Yes Bucky,now please fuck me" I begged.
He thrusted his dick into me biting his lip, "god your so tight" he groaned in pleasure "when I'm done with you,you won't be walking for days"
I moaned loudly as he placed one hand on my stomach and one on the head board
"I'm gonna make you cum doll" he said thrusting quicker, he kissed me before spreading my legs wider. I felt a knot building up In my stomach I moaned loudly making eye contact with him. I moaned loudly orgasming, "oh fuck Bucky" I moaned
"Fuck baby" his warm cum filled me up. He pulled his cock out of me immediately in a panic "shit I'm so sorry! Are you on the pill? Do you need anything?" He asked
"Bucky calm down" I reassured my legs feeling numb
"I don't want to ruin your life by getting you pregnant doll" he stood up putting on his pants "I'll go get you some plan B if you want" he asked
"Bucky sit down!" I pulled him next to me "god I wish you got me pregnant,but it's literally impossible."
"What do you mean?" He asked holding my hand
"In the red room they forcibly sterilise you,they kinda just reach in there an rip every thing out. I'm incapable of having kids" I said tears rolling down my face
"Y/n I'm so sorry" Bucky hugged my tight "I didn't know I'm sorry"
I cried into his shoulder "I wish I could be normal"
"I do to doll" he stroked my hair "come on let's just sleep" he said pulling me onto his chest. Soon I fell asleep on him after crying for like 10 minutes.