If we had five more minutes

the misery

*beep* *beep* was the sound of Wille's alarm bright and early, he needed to prepare himself mentally. Today was the day his mother has set for him to meet Ellie, and he was not looking forward to it. As he rolls over thinking to himself how he only got 30 minutes of sleep prior, he couldn't help but feel the most unmotivated he'd ever felt. He felt drained, broken, exhausted, and just wanted to lie down and die. His wrists had gone sore from the blade and he couldn't feel his fingers. He wanted Simon, fuck he wanted Simon so bad but he couldn't have him, and it ripped him apart knowing that he wasn't brave enough to be Simons in the public eye.

As he arose from the bed he couldn't help but feel a breeze coming from his open window, the breeze felt nice, it reminded him of his brother in that way, his presence always put Wille at ease. It had been snowing all night which immediately set the mood off, the wave of comfort was quickly gone, and the aching sadness had returned.

Going downstairs walking through the empty halls he felt even worse about himself, him already in a suit for the meeting his mom was dying to get started. The sleeves covering any evidence of the cuts sliced through his wrists. Wilhelm sits on the chair in his moms office and waits for the moment his life is officially destroyed, coming very soon, very soon.

That's when he hears a knock at the door his mother is standing there looking down at him as if he was so small.

"Hello?" He says confusingly

"Hello Wilhelm, Ellie will be here in ten minutes, now you must be a gentleman and a boyfriend to her." His mom says clearly haven woken up in an incredible mood.

"Yeah okayyy" he says already annoying with his life as it was.

As he waits with his mother and father on either side of him as the door opens he sees her. She is tall, incredibly tall, like August tall, with blonde long hair and an excessive amount of makeup on. Simon didn't need makeup to be beautiful Wille thought to himself as he greeted the young girl and her family.

Once they got settled the queen started a discussion with the two of them, an unfortunate discussion.

"So Ellie, very pleased to meet you, Wilhelm is as well. You two will start a relationship immediately, a public one for the matter, showing affection in public will help you too all the while, as these dreadful roomers debunk." She says still trying to make it seem like it wasn't Wilhelm in the leaked video.

All he could do was simply smile and hope the world would take him out now.

Throughout the rest of the day he was forced to talk to Ellie, a pleasant young lady but nothing of Wilhelms type. After showing her his room and talking hours on end about his life mentioning his brother's death, his responsibilities and anything that seemed to please her, he found out a bit about her too. She says she was born and raised in Switzerland and had been the youngest of three siblings, all didn't seem to interest Wilhelm whatsoever but he faked it as if he cared, he's faked everything his whole life, what's one more person huh?

As the day slowly went on he couldn't help but think of Simon, how hurt he must be right now, how upset he must be with Wilhelm, with everything, and how much more upset he is going to be when he finds out about this new 'relationship'.

Night came finally and his mother had come into his room and demanded that Ellie stayed in his room, in his bed. Which surely he wasn't okay with, it was his space after all. The only space he didn't have to share to the world, but there was no changing his mothers view on it. And soon enough Ellie became a daily guest. 

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