thoughts and feelings

into nothing.

time
fading into nothing
memories
falling into a dark abyss
mentalily
going into a continous spiral that never stops
everything doesnt matter
anything is making me sick
food
i can barely look at it or even eat it without feeling like ive had enough
everything tastes gross
time is slowing down
my memory is getting worse by the second
i can barely remember when i was doing fine
im fine
its funny how i can say that so easily without actually meaning it
im good
to avoid all the questions and worrying
grades
im trying to stay above a C average
pretty hard when i procrastinate and try to keep my self positive
my mind is going to shambles again
help.
im afraid to ask for it because i grew up being told that i have to learn to be independent and asking for help was not something i felt comfortable doing
it makes me feel weak
weak.
something i feel when im with them
fading into my surroundings to not disturb what was happening around me
make sure not to talk or do anything that they dont approve of
sit in silence and collect my thoughts
time
fading into nothing.........