thoughts and feelings

tattoos //SH MENTION//

I got more tattoos each one I wanted in a spot more painful than the last.
My very last one to let my body rest was done on my thigh
I got 2 more so it makes 7
6 done in the span of 2 months each one because I needed a distraction.
I needed that pain to numb my feelings and focus on something other than what Ive been going through.
Too much in a short span of time.
6 new tattoos but 7 total
I heard that tattoos are a form of SH
I thought it was a lie but given that I've gotten 6 so close together, I start to see why.
It's been a hard few months.
I'm missing my grandpa, I hop from house to house, I cut contact with my father and his side of the family, I dealt with unnecessary drama, and more
Too much in too little
As the tattoo needle hit my skin I didn't flinch.
The "pain" I thought I would've felt just felt like a quick sting before my body went numb and I felt calm.
Tattoos help me be calm.
My thigh tattoo tickled but I felt pain there in some parts.
I went numb and just relaxed.
Laying on the chair was calming and listening to the sound of the needle hit my skin felt amazing but also calming.
I need more tattoos.