thoughts and feelings

numb

Im starting to feel numb again
I wanted a new piercing to feel pain again
That was the only pain I felt in months
Idk if I can trust you anymore even though you say it wasn't your fault
It hurt getting that text
Its embedded into my brain now and forever
I don't like this at all and it hurts to think about it
Make me not feel numb anymore
Because all I do now is smoke to stay sane
I drank a bit too but it doesn't make me feel whole
Smoking isn't giving the same feeling either
Nothings working anymore
Not after that happened idk what to feel or believe anymore