thoughts and feelings

idk

idk if im falling out of love but youre making me feel silenced.
im starting to feel irritated and grow annoyed by the repetitive behaviors.
idk if we might last long but it pains me to have to keep repeating myself after telling you multiple times to stop.
if i come to you with my words of pain i want you to listen and understand me not give your opinion when i asked you to listen i dont want to hear you tell me about you anymore i want you to listen when im having a hard time as i listen to you when you come to me with your problems
idk if its us being together for a long time or us knowing eachother for longer but im starting to feel less and less to you
"mamas boy" they named you because you obey and do everything for your mother in a way that i still dont understand and you barely do the same for me.
i put you at the top of my list to a point where im losing myself again.
im slowly going back to where i was not so long ago.
idk if my feelings are leaving me.
idk....