I'm Okay

Fix me (30)

*Parker's POV*

After we ate we got back on the bus and drove for a few weeks taking the occasional gas station break, and doing more shows until we got to a hotel. I don't feel right. It's been a while now since the incident and I feel so fucking isolated. I'm terrified and I don't know what to do about it.

I know I'm not myself anymore, and I think it's become noticeable now. I hardly ever check my phone, I don't talk, I haven't even begun to think about dance, I just feel like an empty shell of myself.

It feels like I'm out in the ocean.. alone, floating out into the abyss by myself with no end in sight, and for once I think I'm okay with it being that way.

*Billie's POV*
"Hey P I'm going to get our stuff out and bring it into the hotel okay?" I asked my daughter with a slight smile. She nodded quietly her gaze not meeting my eyes. It's been too long. I don't know what's going on with her but we need to fix it.

She walks around almost silently. She doesn't talk to us anymore, she hardly ever sleeps and I'm worried for her mental health. She's not become a danger to herself or others so I really hope I don't have to take her to a mental hospital.

What I didn't tell Parker was that I was meeting Finneas, Claudia, Jake, Cole, and our parents at this hotel.

They're going to be staying for a few days of the tour maybe help Fallon and I pull Parker out of this funk she's in.

I did even more digging and found some old pictures Parker had of her and this kid from a couple years ago. His name is Gavin Clad he's 16, and from what I can tell he was at the adoption agency the same time as Parker, but then was adopted and they lost all contact.

I found him and contacted his parents so he's on a plane and will arrive here at the hotel tomorrow. He's staying for two weeks of the tour because he goes to a public school in North Carolina, and can't miss more than that.

I really hope this works because not only do I want Parker back I feel like she wants away from all of this as well.

My family is waiting up in our room and everything has been unpacked but Parker is still on the bus.

"Hey guys I'll be right back I'm going to go get her I'm not sure what's taking so long. Finn do you want to come with me?" I asked knowing that she has a bigger soft spot for him than she does for me.

"Yeah of course." He replied as we made our way to the elevator. "I'm worried for her bil. She's had her moments, but it's never been this bad.." My brother remarked with a worrisome tone.

"Trust me I know. I'm hoping some friends of hers can pull her out like you, Zoe, and Drew would do for me y'know?" I asked rhetorically as he nodded in response.

"I just feel so bad about all this.. I couldn't imagine dealing with what she does.." Finneas said as we made it to the parking lot and climbed into the bus.

"Hey Parker.. you wanna come to the room now?" I asked as she looked between me and Finneas. "I know everyone is here." She responded as both of our eyes widened. "Wha-" I started before she cut me off.

"You made the mistake of letting them park next to each other. I saw the cars." She stated bluntly as she was pointing to my family's cars parked next to each other across the lot from the bus.

"I'm not trying to walk into an intervention. I'm depressed not an addict mom. I'm fine staying here until they leave." She mumbled before putting headphones on and tuning us out.

Damnit this is going to be a lot harder than I thought.