I'm Okay

Defaced (27)

*Parker's POV*

I felt kind of empty in a way as I got dressed to go pay respects to my sister. It's been 4 years. Even when I was younger it was still so hard to watch them put her casket in the ground. 

She was smashing up Mr. Thompsons car and got sent to Juvie for it. It's all coming back to me now. I'd like to believe he didn't know she'd get beaten to death in there. However, in reality his sick, twisted, mind knew she was too small to make it in there... 

I stopped my eyes from tearing as I left the bathroom and sat on the couch to put on my shoes. I laced up my doc martens as Momma came out of her bunk and went into the bathroom to change. 

"Morning Parker, your mom told me what the plan was today. You sure you want to go to her grave alone?" She asked in a caring way as she left the bathroom and came into the living room area of the bus where I was. 

"Yeah, I'm sure. It shouldn't take too long." I said clearing my throat. "Okay well we only have like 5 minutes until we're there. Your mom told you we'd be close by, right?" She asked double checking. 

"Yeah, she did." I said as the bus parked. "Okay well come back whenever you're ready we'll be here." Fallon said as she embraced me in a loving hug as I nodded in agreement. 

I put on a jacket before leaving the bus as I started walking to the very familiar plot of dirt where my sister's body was laid all those years ago. 

The closer I got the more dread filled my body. When I got close enough to see where her tombstone should be, I saw that someone had defaced her grave.

Tears streamed down my face as I looked at the dirt that was strung everywhere, her tombstone was smashed to pieces, and the ground was hollow. There was no longer a casket under this dirt. 

At least it didn't feel like it. I got closer to the deep hole in the ground and started digging. There's no way her body isn't here, she has to be here this is all I have left of my sister. Please let her be here...

I was now sobbing as I dug what I assumed was 6 feet deep just to find a letter. in an empty casket.

 Her body wasn't here... all that was here was a fucking letter. I didn't understand what happened. I saw her get buried. I went to her fucking funeral there's no way in hell my sister is still alive. 

I'm officially going crazy. What could someone possibly want with the dead body of a then 13-year-old girl?! 

I sat there and sobbed, my hands and clothes were covered in dirt, but I didn't care. All I knew was I missed Rubi and I wanted all of this shit to make sense. 

"Ms. Parker are you alright?" The Guard asked as he came closer to me with his colleague. 

"N-No, I'm not can you call my parents please? Someone vandalized her grave... her body isn't there. It's not in the casket." I said out loud as I began to panic. I felt like all the air had been knocked from my lungs.

 I sat down on the ground in front of the plot of land where my sister was supposed to be buried and pulled my knees to my chest sitting there crying as my mind raced with thought.

She's dead... where's her body? She's gone. where, where did she go...?? I just wanted it to make sense. I felt like everything I saw was a lie. What if her body was never in the fucking casket? I'm losing my mind. 

"Parker?" Fallon asked with worry as she came closer to me and saw me in this state of what I assume is hysteria. "She's gone... I know she's dead, but her casket doesn't have a body in it. Her body is gone.." I yelled sobbing. 

Fallon turned and looked at the grave seeing the open empty casket. It's been four years since she was supposed to have been laid there. Her casket was empty.. there was supposed to be a body there.. I don't understand. 

"Okay c'mon we need to call the police. We'll figure it out Parker-" She started before I cut her off. "Momma I don't want to fucking figure it out I want my sister back." I cried angerly as I got up and ran back to the bus. 

"Parker what's going on?" Billie asked seeing as she was the only one left in the bus. I ran to the back of the bus completely ignoring her and locking myself in the bathroom.

 If I felt an empty feeling this morning it was nothing compared to this..