I'm Okay

Honey Moons, Discussions, and Swimming (2)

*Fallon's POV*

Billie and I had the best wedding ever. That day will forever go down in history as the 2nd best day of my life. The first being the day that May dragged me to that concert. We're in Hawaii on our honey moon. 

We've just finished you know.... the deed. I'm standing in the biggest bathroom of existence looking at myself in the mirror as I feel Billie's arms wrap around my waist.

 "What you up to beautiful?" She asked kissing my neck. "Admiring my work?" She asked with that award wining grin on her face. "Yes but also thinking." I said with a sigh. "About what?" She asked as I turn around and sit on the bathroom counter. She stands between my legs holding my hands. 

"Well you know how we talked about having a family?" I asked. "Yes?" She asks getting excited. "I really want a family but I went to the doctor before the wedding to see if it was possible for me to carry.. you know with IVF.." I said. "And what did they say?" Billie asked getting more excited.

"I can't carry children.. I'm infertile." I said looking down. She squeezed my hand. "Fal there are other options.. It's not that big of deal." She said lifting my chin a bit to make me look at her. "B-But I've ruined everything.. this is what you wanted and I can't give it to you.. I've let you down." I said with tears in my eyes. 

"Hey hey Mama listen to me alright? You haven't let me down or ruined anything! It's not your fault." She says picking me up wrapping her hands around my waist. "So you're not mad?" I asked. "No Fal I'm the happiest I've ever been you want to know why?" She asked. I raised my eyebrows in response. 

"Because you're in my arms and we're together. We're happy and that's all we need to worry about for right now okay?" She asked and I nodded. "Wanna go for a swim?" I asked. "Yes ma'am." She said with a smirk.

"I don't know why I asked that all you want is to see me in a bikini." I said with a chuckle as she sat me down and I scurried off to the bedroom to change.

*Time skip* 

We both changed and made our way down to the ground floor of the resort where the indoor pool and hot tub is. I went to the hot tub telling Billie to follow me. "What are you planning?" she asked stepping into the hot tub after me.

"Relax eilish I'm not going to kill you. I'm your wife that would be a waste of a fabulous wedding." I said as we both laugh. "I know you aren't the biggest fan of the water so I wanted to get in the hot tub so we could relax before we have to go back home." I said pulling her into me so her head was in my lap as we sat on the steps of the hot tub.

"I'm so happy with you.." Billie says relaxing into me. "This is paradise." I said with a smile.