"I know what it's like to lose, do you?
Do you? Have you ever loved someone, then lost that one? You can't even call they phone..
You can't even ask how they day was
Nothing in life's guaranteed, you'll see ..
I'm not being difficult, I just see things differently
When I say I wanna see you, that means something deeper to me I've been missing you for ten thousand hours .."
Staring up at the sky, Paris laid out on the deck of Xavier's yacht . Naked, high and drunk she looked up at the moon singing to Jhene' Aiko .. She had so much on her mind she didn't know which demon to slay first ..
A single tear slid down the side of her face as her brother crossed her mind ..
"Uh, have you ever loved someone, then lost that one? Have you ever missed someone that ain't coming back? You can't even tell that one 'cause they're not here to hear it.. Do you hear me?
Nothing in life's guaranteed, you'll see
I'm not being difficult, I just see things differently
You don't see the urgency, that really worries me.
The problem is that we think, naturally, we have time but you'll find.. Anything can happen, don't take it for granted.."
She missed him miserably, all the times they fought was very much so irrelevant at that moment.
"Paris !!" She heard Xavier yell from inside ..
Startled, she sat up quickly .. wiping her tear stained face in the process. "What ?" She asked
"Let's go in .." He said
Looking around, Paris hadnt even noticed they were back at his house. She was so deep in her thoughts it felt like she was still floating. Standing to her feet, she began putting her clothes back on. Her long hair was pushed back into a high ponytail, and she wore a simple Balmain white Tee and black Balmain biker shorts. She had stripped free of her million dollar jewelry collection. Barefoot and on somebody's beach would always be her definition of an escape. The waves were soothing and being in the middle of the ocean alone made her feel at peace.
She followed X's lead. Grabbing her things along the way, almost hating she had to leave she knew it was late and her kids were going to be looking for her in the morning. "Sure you can't stay ?" He asked, looking back at her ..
"Maybe another time.." Paris smiled..
They made their way up the beach, entering the house .. They made their way into the kitchen through the back doors ..
Munched out, Xavier went looking in the pantry for something else to eat .. She laughed to herself, he didn't smoke before he met her but he did now ..
Looking outside, she dreaded the ride home .. alone ..
She walked into the foyer, leaving X in the kitchen.. Paris took her things to her car, placing them in the trunk.. But something was off, the lights that are usually on outside were out .. it just felt off, as she stood there she swore she heard someone .. Ignoring it, she headed inside ..
She peaked outside at her car once again, pressing the button for the lights to come on outside, she wasn't surprised when they didn't.
She returned to the kitchen ..
Leaning over the counter, she smiled at Xavier who was now eating a sandwich at the bar ..
