P.S. Because I Loved You.

P.S. Because I Loved You [8].

August 19:

Dear Ethan,

I’m a soldier learning how to survive

I have to bleed just to see if I’m alive

The battleground is a cave in the sky

The only place I’ve got, a roof full of lies

Their shrill voices ring my ear

Turn the headphones up so I don’t have to hear

They hate me with passion, I don’t give a fuck

I’m in my own world so I make my own luck

Judge me and see if I care

I know no one will lift the weight that I bear

I hear the whispers in the hall, I’m not deaf

Don’t be pointing your fingers, just hold your breath

Who are you to tell me what I can’t do

I have self-respect; I’m just a one-man crew

Good to know you gave up on me on day 1

I want to escape from this hell, I’m done

Graduate and leave this town

I don’t want to hear your sound

Live my potential, I’ll break free

When in chains, you ignored my pleas

Haters gonna hate and talk shit

You wanted something from me, why don’t you just admit

You thought I was a dumb piece of trash

Look who’s running now, I’ll be gone in a flash

I caught you guilty of charge

For imprisoning my heart

No respect, no sense of belonging

Just pointless blame without knowing

I don’t want your pity, no sympathy

I knew you didn’t want me

I’m my own person and you ain’t gonna change that

Bitch, what you staring at

No one in this world understands pain

They speak of hurt but to them it’s just a game

They talk carefree, trying so hard not to fall

Their ego is large; the reality they live in is small

Shadows on the wall, can’t dare to shut my eyes

Sleepless insomniac with silent sharp cries

Just a few more months of this I will tolerate

Then I’m out, deuces, I’ll go celebrate

I’ll break your leash, never see you again

This time, you don’t get to win

So bye-bye, I won’t look back

I’m painting my life with color, no more gray and black

My eyes forward to the future

Toward success, this moment I will capture.

-Rosalie

P.S. What do you think? You like? I'm going to give it to Tristan.