P.S. Because I Loved You.

P.S. Because I Loved You [18].

September 10:

Dear Ethan,

"You got a letter, Rosalie." said the officer.

I was fast asleep but the hope of hearing from Tristan suddenly revived me.

I opened the letter.

Rosalie,

If every person in this world could say sorry that easily and change the outcome of their mistake...where would we be right now? Hun, you can't change your past. You've got to accept it. I do not know what kind of "murderous" act you commited but whatever it is, it sure doesn't sound like it was performed by the same person I loved.

I held my breath as tears began to collect in my eyes.

I don't know what to say. I trusted you with everything and you forgot to tell me one of the biggest chapters of your life.

I guess love is blind and I was stubborn enough to get attached to you. Your parents got a letter in the mail about your trial. The prison will provide you with a lawyer and your trial starts on the 15th. You will soon get daily visits from your lawyer to build your case. I will be watching the trial, along with your family. The media has everyone in our school talking about you. This is big.

I'll see you when you are presenting your case before the jury and judge. Maybe then, the truth will surely come.

Goodbye,

Tristan

P.S. Be thankful that you're alive right now. Who knows where you could end up.

What was he trying to say? He doesn't believe in me anymore, he has no faith.

I read the lines over and over again, it sure doesn't sound like it was performed by the same person I loved. "Loved", meaning he does not love me anymore? Maybe then, the truth will surely come. Does he think I lied to him about everything? What more need I have to say to convice him of my unconditional love?

My chest was in anguish and the soreness of my heart grew.

My mind banged on the walls of my skull, screaming for help.

My throat narrowed and my breathing grew strangled.

How can loving someone feel so much like suicide?

Where is the damn lawyer?

Rosalie