Our Redemption

I Couldn't Do it Anymore

A few weeks later and I'm leaving for Florence to go shoot another movie but before I leave New York I'm meeting up with Andrew again. I've been debating having this conversation with Andrew but he's my best friend and if it changes things then so be it. I know he cares about me so I just have to grow up and face my fears. We meet for breakfast as he's gonna be shooting for the rest of the day "All set for Italy?" he asks me when we sit down "Pretty much I just can't believe I'm spending the next two months living in Florence" I say "I know I mean you've only just come back into my life and now your flying away for two months" he says "We'll still talk and once I'm back I promised I'd go see your mom and dad and your coming with me" I say and he smiles at me with that charming smile of his "Yes" he says "Before I leave I wanted to talk to you about something" I say "You look serious what's wrong" he says looking concerned "You know the press mentioned me disappearing from the world for awhile after my mom died" I say "Yeah but it's cause your dad was in the hospital right" he says "No he was in the hospital but I was somewhere else. I was back in Denmark for a year where I was born and whilst I was there their was an accident I had met someone over there we weren't that serious but we were driving home one night and we got in an car accident I was pretty banged up broken ribs, bruises, broken leg I had surgery but that wasn't the worst thing" I say "What could be worse than that" he says "I was pregnant I was so sure we'd been careful but these things happen and I remember feeling mixed emotions but a few days later when I'd finally processed everything I started miscarrying just as I decided I could do this my mom did it so could I. I began to heal physically but mentally I was a mess I stayed in Denmark for a couple more months recovering and everything but I eventually came home and about a week later I got the call about the audition for the movie with Ezra and I've been trying to move on ever since but I lost a baby" I say grabbing a napkin and wiping my eyes "I'm so sorry" he says reaching across to take my hand "Ezra and my agent are the only ones who know and now you" I say "I meant what I said we're back in each others lives for good" he says "Thank you. When I came home I thought about reaching out but we hadn't seen each other in so long I didn't know what to say" I say "Hi would of been okay" he says and I laugh. We eat our food and then I head back to my hotel to finish packing.

I'm waiting in the airport for my flight to board and I decide to call my dad "Hello" he says "Hi dad" I say "Aurora how are you" he says "Good really good actually" I say "That's right your a movie star now" he says "You saw my movie" I say "Of course your still my daughter and I'll always support you" he says "I always thought I'd just be the musical theatre person no one really knew but doing that film made me wanna do more. I'll still do musical theatre and theatre when I can but this feels right" I say "Your mom always knew you were gonna be a big star. She always said your starlight shone too bright to hide away" he says "I miss her I think of her every time I go on stage but not seeing her in the audience hurts you know" I say "I know me too. I'm sorry for the things I said that night" he says "Me too. I guess I felt like you were being selfish I was hurting too and I had to be strong for the both of us when you were the one who was supposed to look after me but I realize now that was wrong and I just want my dad back" I say "You were right I wasn't fit to look after you when you needed me the most and if ghosts did exist your mom would be haunting the hell of me for doing that to you" he says and I laugh "Probably" I say and they call for my flight to start boarding "I have to go I'm heading to Florence to shoot another movie but when I get back I'd love to see you" I say "I'd like that. I'm still in our old house so stop by whenever" he says "Okay. Bye" I say "Bye. Aurora I love you" he says "Love you too dad" I say and hang up.