What About Me?

Big News- Chapter Thirteen

Akaashi's POV

You never realize how beautiful places truly are until you see them at the opposite time of day.

Take the city for example. I've seen it a thousand times going day shopping, doing things with friends, but driving through the city at night with all the lights on, things slower than usual, it's very calming.

And when you see certain areas such as a lake on the side of the road, maybe just a field, when you're driving through the night and see it in the daylight, there's so much more to see.

It's dark out right now though, and nothing can calm me, not even the lights shining in the dark of the night. Not that I really need to be calmed down, I just- I need answers.

"Kaaashiiii"

I perk up and look at Ko, who is driving us home.

"Yes Kotaro?"

"What's the matter with you? You've been moping by the window the whole drive. You've been different all day, and to be honest, you have been for a while. What's on your mind?"

"Oh, well nothing much I guess... I haven't spoken to Kenma since our little "blow up," if that's what you would call it. He hasn't talked to me either. I'm just thinking of what I should do and if I should talk anymore about what happened when he went out on his own. I feel like there's more to know, I may just be paranoid, but what if-"

"Keiji, you need to stop being such a worrier! Stop with the 'what ifs.' Kenma may do some things from time to time that may harm himself or not be good for him, but he can take care of himself just fine. He's gotten a lot better, which you already know, and he just had a bad night. The guy helped him out after the fact and let Kenma destress that way. We've all done it. I remember a time when I was holding your drunk ass while you poured your heart out, and while tears were pouring out as well."

I hate it when he's right, and when he actually remembers things.

"Okay, okay. You're right. I shouldn't worry about him as much as I do. He can live his own life. I just want to make sure he doesn't get worse. I only want to see him grow and get better. And yes, I understand that takes time, however, I want to stop any events from prolonging that time."

Bokuto nods his head and reaches his hand over to cover mine. "I understand Keiji, I do. I want to see him get better everyday! I actually think he is getting better day by day, slowly but surely. There are some bumps in the road that are inevitable. He can overcome them though, he's a fighter."

"Yea... he is..."

He is actually a lot better than he has ever been, I think I just worry to much about him taking steps backwards, but that's just the process.

"I'll talk to him when we get back, apologize and hope that he'll forgive me."

"Oh Keiji, he's your best friend. Of course he'll forgive you."

I smile and continue to look at the night sky, which now seems more calming than before.

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When we get home, Kenma is in the shower.

He must've came home from work and gotten in.

I go change into some more comfortable clothes and lie down for a minute. I just want to clear my head before I speak with him.

Not that I'll spend anymore time on the topic, I just want to be calm with him.