What About Me?

Fresh Start- Chapter One

Kenma Kozume's POV

Oh my gosh, I thought high school would never end. It wasn't so bad, but I didn't have Kuroo there by my side for my third year.

Before he graduated, he told me,

"You're my best friend Kenma. I hope you know that."

"Well what about Bokuto-san?"

I hated my boring self.

"He's alright, but you're better. I hope we stay friends after high school, don't you?"

"Yea, I guess so."

He stayed true to his word.

Everyday after I got out of school, he would be there, at the gate, just waiting. Not for just anyone, but for me. He always told me sweet little compliments and stuff and that's something I really missed.

Now I know what you wanna ask, "Do you like Kuroo?" I mean everyone always asks me that. Of course, I say no but I don't mean it.

I love Kuroo, but I know he's into girls, so it's okay. I'm used to the fact that I will not be with him and make him happy.

It's just not how things work.

I want to spill my guts out to Kuroo, but I know that will never end good on my part or his.

But anyway, he continued to wait for my at the gate everyday until one day, he wasn't there.

I waited for a couple of minutes before I decided to walk home myself. Later on that night, I got a text from him saying,

"Hey Kenma, I'm sorry for not being at the gate today. I was hanging out with one of my friends and lost track of time. I'll be there tomorrow though, I promise."

Well, he broke his promise and didn't show up for the rest of the week. I texted him to make sure he was okay, but he never answered, so I finally went to his apartment.

He gave me a key if I ever needed somewhere to go since my mom isn't home a lot because of work.

I unlocked the door and yelled for him, but he didn't answer, so I went up to his room and knocked on the door.

No answer.

I finally decided to go in, but I deeply regret that decision because he was there, but so was someone else.

There Kuroo was, with a girl, but they weren't just doing anything, they were making out and I just interrupted it.

I closed the door a little harder than I should've because after I went back downstairs and headed for the door, Kuroo stopped me.

I must've been crying because he looked at me with pain in his eyes and said, "I'm so sorry Kenma, I didn't want you to find out like this. I'm sorry that I've been avoiding you so much."

I told him it was okay and that I was fine, so then I left. He really shouldn't have apologized because that's not the reason I was crying.

I was crying because that's the day that it finally sinked in.

I love Kuroo, but he will never love me.

Now here we are, a year later, with me out of high school and Kuroo in his first year of college.

I would always go to his place and hang out with him, but I stopped going after his girlfriend started showing up when I did.

Kuroo kept telling me to come back, but I just couldn't do it. I couldn't face the fact that I'm his third wheel now, not his best friend.

I know I am his best friend, but now it's different in a way.

Now I'm out of high school, so I can have a fresh start on my life.

  

Kuroo's POV

I HATE COLLEGE! I only have a few friends, my girlfriend, and a shit ton of work!

I just got done with another excruciating day of school.

Why can't Kenma just be my age and in the same college as me?

He used to make my days so much better and brighter. But I feel bad because I stopped hanging out with him when I got my girlfriend.

It also seemed like he didn't like her so much, which I understand she can be quite annoying sometimes, but still, I like her so much.

I want her and Kenma to be close because he's my best friend and I want to continue being friends with him.

I also want to play volleyball with him again. I decided once I got to college and wouldn't have Kenma as my setter, that I wouldn't play anymore.

I miss it so much though. But maybe I can ask him to come over sometime and play with me.

That sounds like a good plan.

Kenma's POV

I walk home, because it's not far away. I miss walking home with Kuroo because we lived right next to each other, but now he lives in his own apartment.

I saw the coffee shop we went to everyday after school and decided I would go and get me a cup of coffee.

If I didn't have coffee, I would probably fall to the floor and die. I walk in and get a vanilla coffee.

I decided I should sit and drink it, so I picked a table in the corner. I love this coffee shop because it has a chill environment and I'm always one to be chill, so it just suits me.

I think that's what Kuroo thought too. After I get done with my coffee, I decide to go ahead and walk home.

While I walk home, I think about how long it's been since I saw or talked to Kuroo.

I've been meaning to call him, but I got to busy with school. When I get home, I walk in and say that I'm home just incase my mom might actually be here like she said she would.

"Hey Kenma, come in the kitchen. Someone came to see you."

To see me?

Who would want to see me? I walk in the kitchen and I see-

"Hey Kenma! How's it been?"

I was not expecting this.

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A/n: So, how was the first chapter? I think I did pretty good on this one to be honest. Sorry (not sorry) for the cliffhanger. You'll know who it is in the next chapter, which I hope to get out soon. I at least want to have a new chapter out each month. Well, I hope you enjoy this first chapter of my third book! See you next time! Peace!✌

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