What About Me?

One of Those Days- Chapter Nine

Kenma's POV
I wake up to Mito pawing at my stomach, trying to get comfortable. "Hey... stop that." I lift him up and sit him besides me. He meows at me with a glare in his eyes. "Sorry, I just don't feel like getting pawed at the moment, especially when I didn't get much sleep. I just got up too..." He meows again and lays down beside me with ease. I guess the bed is more comfortable than my stomach. I would think it's the better choice anyway. It's not comfortable for me, that's for sure. There were multiple times when I woke up for no reason, but I couldn't get back to sleep for long. I'd say I only got two or three hours of sleep. I turn on my side and reach for my phone. It's still hard to believe that Kuroo bought me a new phone... I check the time and see that I have a new message from the one and only. What if she sent another message... No, no, he wouldn't let her do that again. I open it and see...

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[-Kuroo-]

Good morning Kenma! I bet you're still asleep, but I wanted to check on you. How are you feeling? How are your hands?

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He really wants to check on me? I'm surprised he even texted me, but I guess what happened is serious. Any normal human would be concerned. I start typing, then send a message back.

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[-Me-]

I'm actually awake sadly, but good morning. I'm feeling fine physically, my hands are fine, but I'm not sure about my mood. I'm still in bed, but I think I'm awake enough to know I still feel a bit down. But, it's nothing serious. All in all, I'm okay.

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[-Kuroo-]

Well that's surprising, you're not a morning person 😂 Anyway, I'm glad your hands are okay and that you're fine physically. I do wish that you were a bit happier though, or at least not feeling down. Is there anything I can do to help cheer you up?

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[-Me-]

Not that I know of, but I'm pretty sure Akaashi and Bokuto are taking me to a café for breakfast. Hopefully that'll cheer me up some.

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I hope it will, but if the same scene that happened the other day occurs again, I definitely won't be cheerful. I decide to sit my phone down before he responds again, letting out a tired sigh. I want to lay back down and go to sleep, not waking up for the entire day. That's how I feel today. However, I need to get up. I need to do something and get my mind off of things. Maybe a hot shower will help me wake up... I give Mito one more rub on the head, then go to take a shower. After I was finished, I get out and get dressed. The tired feeling that I have didn't go away, I just feel even more tired. It seems like I'll just be exhausted for the day. It'll just be one of those days...

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Me, Akaashi, and Bokuto are now at the café, and everything is going alright. Now I'm hoping the coffee can wake me up. "Yes Ko, there are a few sellers in the area, you already asked me this." "Well I'm sorry, I just wanna know if they're still selling. I just can't wait to move here." Sometimes I question how Bokuto's mind works. I decide to chime in on the conversation. "I'm excited too, but you know Bokuto, a house isn't going to just sell overnight. Not all of them at least." Akaashi nods in agreement with me. "I- yea, you're right. But I still want to look at them today or tomorrow." "I can't do it tomorrow, I'm going to search for another job." "Well today it is then. Would you wanna come along Kenma?" I shake my head. "No, I'm fine. I don't feel like doing much today anyway, so I might just go back home and take a nap." "Oh... okay! If you need anything though, just call us. We won't be too far away." Akaashi looks at me with slight concern on his face. "Are you feeling sick or...?" "No, it's more of a tired feeling, but I think I just didn't get enough sleep." He nods. "Alright then... we'll take you home after this then go house hunting." Bokuto smiles and I nod my head. Akaashi didn't sound ecstatic or anything, but not as worried as he can sound. We finish our breakfast, they take me home, then they go on their way.

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Akaashi and Bokuto have been gone for most of the day. They're eating dinner now and bringing me something back. I didn't do much except play with Mito, play some games, and tidy up a bit. The house isn't entirely messy, but when mom is away, I always make sure it stays clean. It's how she likes it. I wasn't able to sleep either...
Having the day to myself also gave me some time to think. Time to think about what I want to do with my life, where I want to go, and most importantly, who I want to spend my life with. Right now there's only one person in the running, and I can't even have him.

So, I thought of ways to get over this one-sided love:

1. Never speak to Kuroo again, but have the possibility of running into him-

2. Shut myself off from the world

3. Move away from here

4. Do something I've thought about doing before. Let's just say it'll end all of my emotions

Maybe option four should be crossed off of the list... but if worse comes to worst, it's still a plan. All of the plans aren't exactly the best of plans, but I don't know what else to do. I want to get over him so badly, but my heart won't let me. There's a battle between my heart and mind, and it seems it'll be never-ending. That may seem a bit extreme, but I know how my feelings work. Well- Most of the time. I don't have strong feelings towards people, I rarely form regular friendships on my own. The feelings I have for Kuroo didn't immediately form either. I think I noticed how I really felt for him right before high school started. And it was a feeling I haven't felt since that day. Could someone else come along? Probably. Am I being very pessimistic and silly about everything? Probably. However, do I still think I'll only feel this way for Kuroo? Yes, because Kuroo is special to me. I can't imagine being with anyone else...

Ding Dong

Oh, I wonder who that is? Bokuto and Akaashi have a spare key, so it couldn't be them... Maybe it's him... I go to the door and open it up, not seeing Kuroo, but his girlfriend.

"Hello Kenma! Are you busy?"

"Very."

"Oh... well I just wanted to quickly say that I'm sorry for what I sent to you. I didn't mean to cause any problems."

"Well you did, but I guess it's all fine and dandy."

"Alright... Oh, one more thing before I go...

I know you and Kuroo are close, but it's almost too close for my comfort. Know your limits as his friend, okay? Me and him are moving forward in our relationship, I'd hate to see it get destroyed by some silly childhood friend. I'd also hate to see him leave me for you. You two can still hang out, but keep your distance. See ya later~!"

I stand there in shock as she makes her way down the steps. What the hell?

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Ha.

She's not wrong though....

I'm just a silly childhood friend who can't get over his stupid feelings for someone. Someone who happens to have a girlfriend. Why did I ever like him? Why did I not push him away when I was young? Why did I ever have to become his friend... As I close the door, I turn around and slide down it.
My face is hiding in my palms, knees to my chest, tears already sliding slowly down my face. It's simply one of those days...

One of those days...

Where I want to give up, and give in.

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Word Count: 1,397

A/n: It's not exactly a lengthy chapter, but I guess its better than nothing, right? I don't know how I feel about this one... I think it sounds kinda weird or something, but I'm not sure of what else to have them all say 😅Hope you all enjoy it, go ahead and tell me what you think about it too. Constructive criticism is always welcomed haha. I'm also tired while finishing this, so sorry if it doesn't make sense or if there's any mistakes. I'll go through another time and check. Hope everyone is doing well. Stay safe!
Peace ✌