ARIA POV:
I don't know why but I can't eat at the moment,well I can eat very small amounts but I have litteraly no appetite right now. I only eat it someone cooks for me cuz I don't want them going through all that just for me not to eat it.
Jahseh opened the door,he had just drop aidin off at the bus
"Do you wanna watch a movie?"he asked me
"Umm ya sure what should we watch"
"Mmmmm the conjering maybe"he replied
He loves watching scary movies with me but I'm pretty sure that's just cuz he likes seeing me scared.
We both sat down on the couch under a blanket.i rested my head on his shoulder as he put the movie on
After the movie
"Imma be having some night mares anyway" I shook my head trying to get them creepy ass images out
"Bruh it ain't even that bad u just a pussy"
"That's what you said when we watch a movie with ski and em"I giggled
I can't believe how quickly we got close,usually u take it slow with people but there is something different about jah. This is the best relationship I have ever been in, u was in some toxic ass relationships before this.
"Imma order some food,do you want any?"he asked
"Ummm nah I'm good" I replied
"Are you sure you haven't been eating much"
"Yes jah I'm sure"
"Imma get you some anyway cuz u gotta eat more"he told me
I just nodded cuz I didn't want to argue with him. He is just trying to help and I'm litteraly just avoiding the help,why am I such a bitch.i fucking hate my self some times
"So why are you not eating"he asked me walking back in the room
"I-i don't know"I looked at the floor
I don't want to upset him or make him angry,most of the time when I told my family how I was feeling they just told me I was attention seeking or that I should get over it. I don't wanna come across like I'm attention seeking
"Aria please just talk to me about it, its only gonna lead to your miseray if you hold shit in" he looked at me with complete simpathy
(I advise you not to hide your feeling,don't pretend to be ok when ur not ok don't pretend to be happy when ur sad it's only gonna lead to your miseray)😂I'll stop now
"Jah I said I'm fine"I still refused to look at him, I refused to let the tears escape my eyes.
"No your not so stop acting like you are, it not good for you, just talk to me,if you tell me I'll tell you"he pleaded calmly
"Fine but you have to go first"I agreed
I suppose he gets to get shit off his chest so I'll talk to him
"Ok we're do I start,ummmm......when I was about five my uncle was minding me while my mom was out, I was just up stairs and you know the hole vibe to the place was off at that moment,it kinda scared me I guess so I went to go find my uncle" he took a little breath before continuing
"I went down stairs and checked in the living room but he wasn't there, so I checked the kitchen, I ummm... I walked in and he-he had hung himself,it-that image of him hanging just kinda stayed in my head" I noticed his eyes were glossy. I sat closer to him and put my head on his shoulder
"It's your turn now"he told me.
"Umm so my dad was a drug addict,when I was about three he took some heroin with his friend,we tried to set me and my mom on fire,he litteraly tied us to the bed and poured gasoline on us, one of his friends had to stop him from doing it,the funny thing is that's my very first memory"I giggled at the end
Jahseh was just about to talk when there was a knock on the door
He walked up to the door and I followed behind him
He opened the door and there was a girl standing there
"The fuck you doing here Geneva"jah looked confused
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DEPRESSION and OBSESSION
FanficJahseh Onfroy is a teen struggling with depression and OCD when his friend Stokley introduced him to a new girl that just moved into his neighbourhood. Little did he know that girl would change him, but was it for the better or worse?
