DEPRESSION and OBSESSION

PART 28

JAHSEH POV:

"What are you talking bout?"I furrowed my eyebrows confused

"You heard me why is Geneva texting you" she asked looking furious

"I don't have Geneva in my contacts, I have her old number but she doesn't use it anymore, the only reason it wasn't blocked was because she blocked me first so there was no need too"

"Than what is this" she turned the phone around to show me that Geneva was texting

"Bro dats her old number, I didn't think she still even used that shit" I explained

"Mhm"she hummed and just threw my phone on the sofa before walking into the kitchen

I walked in after her

"Your not actually mad at me are you"

"No jah I'm not mad" she sighed

"Than why you acting like this, you've seen the messages I haven't even replied to her since like a year ago. The first time she has texted me in like 6 months was today and I didn't even know about that till you showed me"

"Sure jah,I'm going out with alekes anyway" she says walking away yet again

"Bruh fine, I'm actually not doing this with you" I gave up

About twenty minutes later she came down stairs dressed in jeans and a crop top

"Bye" she said before walking out

I don't even understand why she so mad. Not once have I replied to any of the messages, she acting like I fucked Gen or some shit

I fucking called it though. I said karma gonna hit and this relationship gonna get fucked up. That's what always happens, shit never lasts ever. I always fuck shit up, some times it's not even something that I done then and there it could just be some shit I did before that made them not trust me or some shit. I deserve it though. All this shit with Joyce, I deserve it, she didn't but I do. Just like how aria doesn't deserve to get hurt but I deserve the loose her. All I ever do is hurt people around me. I can't fucking loose aria. That shit would brake me. I love her.

I went to my phone and blocked Geneva. I can't have her fuck up my relationships. She likes to do that. I don't see what I did to her that was so bad. She framed me, she cheered on me, she made so many people hate me. I have to deal with people constantly calling me a woman beater and shit like that even after she dropped all the charges and shit.

I went to the kitchen and started washing dishes cuz tf else have I got to do. At least ma will be happy if I do the dishes.they are coming back tomorrow so me and aria are gonna tidy the house. After was done with the dishes I went up stairs. I went through the beats that scheme sent me and started to Wright one about Joyce. It took hours to write it I want it to be perfect

I know you so well, so well
I mean, I can do anything that he can
I've been pretty
I know you're somewhere, somewhere
I've been trapped in my mind girl, just holding on
I don't wanna pretend there's something, we're nothing
I've been stuck thinking 'bout her, I can't hold back
I'm in pain, wanna put ten shots in my brain
I've been tripping 'bout some things, can't change
Suicidal, same time I'm tame
Picture this, in bed, get a phone call
Girl that you fucked with killed herself
That was this summer and nobody helped
And ever since then, man, I hate myself
Wanna fucking end it
Pessimistic
All wanna see me with no pot to piss in
But niggas been excited 'bout the grave I'm digging
Having conversations about my haste decisions
Fucking sickening
At the same time, memory surfaced through the grapevine
'Bout my uncle playing with a slipknot
Post traumatic stress got me fucked up
Been fucked up since a couple months they had a nigga locked up
I be feeling pain, I be feeling pain just to hold on
And I don't feel the same, I'm so numb
I be feeling pain, I be feeling pain just to hold on
And I don't feel the same, I'm so numb
I know you so well, I know you well
I mean, I can do anything that he can
I've been pretty

I sang along to the beat. I like it, I hope that Joyce would have too.

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Hope y'all liked it. Ngl after this chapter shit getting super crazy. Let's just say you'll be seeing a lot more of skyler

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