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Chapter Four

At 7pm we went to grab dinner with the rest. The Sanctuary offered every kind of food you could think of. It was a long time ago since I last had an actual meal, and I was pretty full after that.

I've missed that feeling. I would most like to have a second plate but figured it wasn't something I could pull off. I was talking to Dr Carson when Kourtney joined us. She looked exhausted, but good.

"How was it?", we asked each other at the same time. I laughed. "Me first. I'm working at the infirmary, Dr Carson here helps me study." Dr Carson waved at Kourtney. "Okay, your turn.", I said and looked at her expectantly.

She shrugged. "I don't know, to be honest. It isn't a steady job, I look everywhere and if there's something to do I do it. Which also includes cleaning the toilets."

I gave her a pitiful glance. "It's okay.", Kourtney appeased. "I really like it, as long as I don't have to do what the rest of them do." With 'the rest of them' she probably meant the Saviors that worked outside of the Sanctuary. 'With' people.

I had successfully repressed the thought of what they did, what their methods were.Until now. I didn't actually know it, but after what they did with us today, I could imagine how they treated the other communities they "saved".

Kourtney's words caused a conflict of conscience in me. I knew that those were bad people here, but just like us, they did what they had to do to survive. This was the freaking apocalypse, no one gave a damn about rules.

"Have you seen Tony?", I asked. She shook her head. "Nope. Poor guy, has to work extra hours on his first day." We chuckled. "Yeah, I mean it could be worse, right?"

"Yeah, probably.", Kourtney admitted and turned her head. "Hey, Tina!", she said and waved at her. Tina smiled and walked towards us. "You two already know each other, right?", Kourtney said after Tina sat down.

We nodded. "So... You're sisters?", Tina said. "You also have one, right?", Kourtney asked. "Yeah, Sherry. I'm the younger one. Which one of you two is older?", she wanted to know. "Kourt.", I said.

After a few minutes everyone slowly left. Because we didn't know any better we also went to our rooms. I had just started reading Grey's Anatomy when I heard a knock on my door. I prayed to heaven it wasn't a Savior and opened the door.