weakness • negan x reader

Chapter Five

To my relief, it was only Tina, like me in her pyjamas. "Can I come in?", she asked. "Sure." I opened the door further. "I can't sleep.", she said and took a seat on my desk. "I couldn never sleep well since I've been here."

"When did you come here?", I asked and sat on my bed. "I don't know. Long time, weeks, maybe. Too long ago, if you ask me." I didn't know how to formulate my next question.

"What are you doing here? I mean, where do you work?" I couldn't imagine her as a Savior and that's pretty much all I knew about work places here. "Oh, I don't really work here. Dwight's a Savior, and Sherry is... Well, she's being tolerated because of D. And I'm being tolerated because she is."

"Oh." I stroked a strand of hair behind my ears. "That doesn't sound very Negan-like. I mean, having two people here without them benefiting him.", I added. "Oh, I am benefiting him. Or I will, soon.", Tina said. Her face stiffened.

"I don't understand.", I said. Tina crooked a smile. "Have you heard the names Amber, Frankie and Tanya?" I slowly shook my head. "They're some of Negan's wives."

Tina looked at me to catch my reaction.I understood. Negan wanted to marry her. The fact that he had more than one wife didn't surprise me at all, this whole place started seeming like a cult. I wanted to know more about it, but I didn't know how to ask.

Luckily she decided to change the subject. "You also have a brother, don't you?"

"Yeah.", I answered. "Tony. I haven't seen him at dinner today, though. If he doesn't show up tomorrow I'm gonna start worrying."

Tina smirked and said, "Oh don't worry, no one gets lost here. Or if they do, it's not a secret." If that was supposed to calm me down, it didn't work. Then I remembered what Laura told us about the rules here.

"Random killing, torturing, rape and so on is obviously forbidden.", I thought. 'At least this place still held humanity. Those rules didn't always apply to Negan, though.

According to Laura, Negan established the rules, but when someone broke them, he was also willing to do the same as a punishment. "The rules keep us alive.", she said.

After all, living here in the Sanctuary was complicated, but it was possible as long as you weren't lazy or cheeky. I promised myself never to annoy anyone here even in the slightest way.

Tina and I chatted until she declared she was going to try to sleep again. I looked at the clock, it was 2.33am, so I went to bed too and stared at the dark ceiling.

I fell asleep very quickly but the next morning I felt like I hadn't slept in days. I got what Tina meant with not being able to sleep. The atmosphere in this place was bitter and cold. It felt like no one was truly happy.

When I arrived at the infirmary, Dr Carson was already there, writing something into his notebook. "Morning.", I yawned. "Good morning.", he replied without looking up.

I buried myself in a book about bullet wounds and we didn't really talk for the next hours until there was a knock at the door. It was Laura."Negan wanted me to check up on you. Is everything alright?"

I decided to seize the opportunity and said, "Yeah, everything's alright, it's just... I haven't got that much to do here. I don't think that Dr Carson needs me, most of the time I'm just sitting here. I mean, if there's an incident I can also come back and help, but maybe you need more people somewhere else."

Laura looked at Dr Carson for confirmation. "Okay, I'll see what I can do. Maybe there's a free place somewhere, I'll contact you. Anything else?" "Yeah, do you know where my brother is?", I asked. "I haven't seen him since yesterday."