𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐊𝐘 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐄 [ H.KAZUTORA ]

61•[the reaper]•

she was now in her car , just sitting there staring at the steering wheel , she drived to an empty parking then she just stopped there to take a minute , her hands are slightly trembling , and her sight is getting blurry because of her tears , she didn't want to completely break down , she never had a breakdown since she was 16 , now she just keeps her emotions to herself and try somehow to forget about it, either with drugs or sex .

but now she just can't help it , she started sobbing with tears running down her cheeks , she puts her forehead on the steering wheel then started crying loudly while sobbing , if someone heard her right now they'll probably think that it's a kid, crying because they got lost or separated from their mother .

"im sorry , im sorry , im sorry"

she kept whispering those two words over and over again , everytime she says it she hits her forehead gently on the steering wheel .

she cannot take it anymore , she just wants to be dead , she's been through a lot , she wants to leave as soon as possible , yet she remembers kazutora , she loves him so much and she thinks that he'll hate her if she left this world .

that's what hurting her right now , she didn't even got the chance to spent a lot of time with him , when she was young she always wanted to marry him someday and have a kid or two with him , spend the rest of her life with him ,with her brother , with her friends , with mikey , but the reality is completely the opposite.

she wants to be dead but at the same she wants to live with them .

she looked up wiping her tears while shaking and gasping for air , she grabbed a bottle of pills from her bag then swallowed some of them , she let out a shaky breath then whispered with a barely audible voice.

"you have to do it aki , you have to save mikey , you have to help him , it will make your friends happy"

her friends happiness is what matters , if sacrificing her life means a happy life for them , she'll gladly do it , they'll be sad at first knowing that she died for them , but they'll get it , they'll understand one day , kazutora will understand.

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after totally calming down , she drived to her apartment while thinking , she can't stop thinking , she wants everything to be perfect , everyone will be happy after her death.

when she arrived,she entered her appartement taking her boots off , she walked to her bedroom , the lights were off she didn't bother to turn them on ,she pulled her gun away from waist then put it on the  table she just went to her dresser then changed her clothes , leaving her with just a black sport bra and shorts , she stopped moving when she felt something's wrong in the bedroom , she quickly ran to the table to grab her gun , but suddenly she stopped when she felt a sharp knife on her throat , and somebody's presence behind her , the person was holding her close to their body , with an arm around her waist and the other hand was holding the knife on her neck .